Major Tom

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Fri, 05 Jun 2009 00:03:37 GMT

I'm sick of missing someone who doesn't care.
Happy fucking birthday.

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 09:21:22 GMT

Fact: Kyo likes to deprive herself--whether it be sleep, food, or orgasm.

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Sun, 01 Feb 2009 00:52:31 GMT

@ Dane Cook :D Yay!

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Tue, 30 Dec 2008 00:14:29 GMT

I dig everything. :)

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Tue, 23 Dec 2008 16:48:39 GMT

Woohoo. Just bought myself a new phone

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Tue, 23 Dec 2008 04:15:51 GMT

Pffft, I lied!
:D

No more cell phone.
My birth control is pumping me full of estrogen.

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 05:33:43 GMT

Mr... Mr. Hoover? At Sutar's?! Drinking and chewing tobacco?!? Making lewd commets! Dear God...

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 06:00:05 GMT

Awww gonna go hang out n get drunk with pancakes friends. Gonna finally meet his GF. ;D

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 03:36:24 GMT

Fuck.Fuck.Fuck. I hate the mall. Too many fucking memories.

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Nov 2008 18:43:48 GMT

Bogie=Panic attack.

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 18:00:43 GMT

Ahhh... Hard Candy<3

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 04:01:53 GMT

I feel... Everything.

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 00:51:32 GMT

Mmm... Tar.

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Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 00:47:16 GMT

Oh God. Its not good that when I breathe, my lungs rattle, and I hack up shit when Im not sick, is it?

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Sun, 12 Oct 2008 14:20:50 GMT

Bitches.
Comment to be kept, obviously.
That is the reason I'm having this cut in the first place, isn't it?

Also, if you have me on your list, and I don't have you, please take me the fuck off.

WaruxKyo: The Calander Hung Itself: Ch. 5

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Wed, 16 Jan 2008 21:04:39 GMT

Title: The Calander Hung Itself
Author: 304_pinkkiller & mrssleazoid
Chapters: 5/?
Genre: N/A
Rating/warnings: NC-17 / twincest, anal, oral, rape, drugs, obsession, abuse, ect.
Band(s): -----Dir en grey I guess.. and whatever Kisaki is considered. Possibly others later
Pairing(s): WaruxKyo - KisakixKyo
Summary: Kyo meets his twin brother who his parents disowned as a child and who seems to have no limits. And what's this about Kyo's psycho boyfriend? DUNDUNDUN! ~~haha, gay summary.~~
Disclaimer: We own computers, yes?
Notes: Comments=♥...God, this fic is old... XD Must catch up!

Archive
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4

Three days passed since he'd last seen Waru, since he'd last even left the house. He wasn't allowed, Kisaki kept track of him all the time, but he was also afraid to leave the norm. He didn't know if he wanted to chance seeing Waru again, feeling ashamed for leaving like that for this. Most of the time the blonde slept, only leaving the room he shared with Kisaki to be fucked, take showers, and eat; he didn't feel like doing those much either. The first two days, he watched his phone constantly, hoping Waru would call with some way to get him out of this again, but once the third day approached, that hope died out.

Stretching out in the middle of the bed, he could smell the burning from the living room. That same smell was always what he woke up to, and it reminded his waking mind that Kisaki wouldn't leave for anything now. Pulling the blankets closer to his body, he held onto them as if he was holding onto someone else, the feeling comforting though he knew it was foolish.

Waru woke up once again, feeling the hangover from the partying last night taking its toll. He looked around his bedroom, noticing a girl on the other side. He crawled closer, trying to get a look at her face, not knowing who the hell she was.

"It's your job to be out of here before I wake up, slut." He mumbled before moving out to his toilet, splashing cold water on his face, falling down to the floor, pressing his palms against his head.
He went over to the kitchen to get some aspirins before moving back to the bathroom to take a shower. He felt disgusted knowing that he had fucked a slut like that.

But then again, everyone he ended up fucking seemed to be a bunch of sluts.
Images of him and Kyo struck his mind. He leaned against the spot he'd had Kyo for the very first time. He figured he should call the blonde later... Just to see if he's even still alive.

He enjoyed the water streaming down his body, making him feel refreshed. The feeling didn't last long as someone knocked on the door, he let out a grunt as reply as the girl stumbled inside, moving over to the sink, puking her guts out.
Waru sighed, turning off the shower and moving passed her, ignoring her to the fullest. He pulled on a pair of jeans, moving to his kitchen, waiting for her to leave.

She came out a moment later, "Um..." She looked at him, "did you use a condom?" Waru nodded, even though he wasn't sure at all if he actually had done it. "I suggest you take one of those day after-pills anyway though." He said, avoiding looking at the tramp.
She nodded, humming a reply before moving out of his apartment.

Waru moved to get his cell phone, beginning to dial the number to his brother. He felt his headache strike back with full force again.
It didn't take long for someone to answer in a low voice, "hello?"
Waru breathed out once he heard the voice of his brother. "You alive?" he didn't bother to say anything else.

Kyo was silent, a rush of feelings coming through him after hearing that. He lifted his head from the pillow to make sure the door was closed; it was. He pulled the blankets over his head and began to speak again, "If I wasn't, would I have answered the phone?"

Waru's leaned his head back against the wall, fingering his piercings with his empty hand. It was a relief to have Kyo answer instead of Kisaki; at least he knew he was conscious.

Silence.

"Is there something you called for?" Kyo started again, feeling annoyed that Waru would call him so pointlessly after what happened.

"Not really." Waru said. "I just feel like shit that I promised you I wouldn't let you get raped again."

Kyo bit his lip, "Oh... Well I'm used to it so I guess there's nothing you need to promise anymore." he wished Waru would care, but instead just acted like there was nothing to care about, feeling almost cold as he did. He had fooled himself enough that nothing was wrong, why should he stop now.

Waru began pulling at his own hair in frustration, wondering how he could make Kyo understand he deserved so much more.
"So you want me to say okay, have fun and hang up and let him continue to do this to you?" He asked, waiting for Kyo to give off any slight hint that he actually had been thinking about him.

There was another silence, but shorter this time. "No." came Kyo's short answer.

Waru breathed out, pushing the phone closer to him as if it would take Kyo to him. "Okay then..." He paused, "Will you ever get a chance to get out of there?"

Kyo sat up a bit, and Waru could hear the shuffling of the blankets falling over the phone as Kyo looked to check the room. "He's got me on lock down," he said, voice lower now just incase Kisaki might hear him though he was busy enough. "He's in the living room right now though.."

Waru sighed, mentally trying to strangle the guy doing this to Kyo. "Well... I'd really like to see you."

Lying back down, Kyo ran his hand over his face unsure of how to respond to that. "Do you think...? You could get me out of here?"

Waru bit his lip, "Maybe you could try to sneak out at night... When he's asleep. And I can wait for you outside your door incase he'd wake up and try anything on you."

Kyo thought about it, but there was really nothing to think about; he wanted out of there and he didn't really give a shit how. "Umm... Yeah... around midnight I guess... He usually passes out on the couch so I don't think he'd notice if I went out the back window again"

"Ok... Um... I need your address." He scratched his head, forcing his mind to focus as Kyo gave it to him. He quickly memorized it.
"Midnight then?"

"Yeah... Waru?" he heard his brother grunt in question. "Could I stay for a few days?" he was a bit afraid to ask, but he was more afraid to stay with Kisaki; his tolerance the drugs he took building and making him more aggressive over the days.

Waru couldn't help but to feel a faint smile forming on his lips. "Yeah, sure." He said simply.

"Okay well... I better go now before Kisaki catches me on the phone" he rushed, becoming paranoid as he heard more noises from the living room. "See you then," he whispered then hung up, shoving the phone into the pocket of his boxers so that if Kisaki were to walk in he wouldn't know that he even had it.

Waru shut his phone, feeling relieved. He turned his body in the couch, watching the time on a clock on the wall. He still had a whole day to pass, and he decided to sleep it away. He put his head down the corner of the couch, pulling another pillow over his head, before quickly falling asleep.

Kyo found himself with about an hour to quickly pack his things, pretty much just some clothes, cigarettes, and hair products; it was all he'd need for now, he'd steal some money when it was time to leave. Kisaki only bothered him once later that night to have him make them some food since he was obviously too out of it to manage making his own damn food. Kyo found a bitter pleasure from the chance he had though. He'd drug him, making sure the night went smoothly.

He opened the cabinet where spices and medication were kept, and took out a few of his own prescriptions, dropping quite a few into the food. Smirking as he took the drugged meal to Kisaki, who seemed to not notice anything amiss, Kyo sat on the couch to eat before going back into the room so Kisaki could finish what he was doing in solitude, like he preferred it; he's always get mad if Kyo were in the same room while he tended to his addiction.

Sometime within the next half hour, Kisaki was passed out, because Kyo came out to check and he was completely limp against the arm of the couch. Looking at the clock, it was 11:48 and he smiled to himself before going into the bathroom, cleaning himself up and doing his hair. After he was finished he put on some of his better clothes and grabbed his large duffle bag, slinging it over his shoulder and snatching most of the money left in Kisaki's drawer. Opening the window, flinching when it made a slight squeak, he climbed out onto the latter, shutting the window behind him before climbing down and jumping to the pavement.

He looked around, but didn't see Waru anywhere. Scratching his head, he pulled out his phone to check the time; 12:04. Kyo sighed, dialing Waru's number.

"Hello?" was the response given when the receiver connected.

"You forget something?" Kyo asked, smirking slightly. He was at least happy to hear his brother on the other line.

"No... I just happened to get lost a few times," he said with a slight laugh.

Kyo raised a brow, noticing that the voice suddenly sounded oddly amplified. Turning around, he slammed the phone shut and rolled his eyes, walking over to his dark haired brother who stood at the end of the alleyway. "You're such a dick, you know that?" he joked.

Waru shrugged, "I have one, I know that."

Kyo rolled his eyes and pushed Waru to the side a bit. "So... Your place?" his voice regained its hesitant tone with the question, being a bit nervous about going back to Waru's place after their little fight.

Waru nodded, looking around to see if anyone was watching them. "This is one weird neighborhood, Kyo."

Kyo nodded, "You fit right in."

Waru smirked, "You don't." He looked at Kyo, moving closer before taking his hand in his own, intertwining their fingers together.

Kyo looked down at Waru's hand holding his own, feeling a bit better. "I didn't think you were the hand-holding person?" Kyo said, slightly amused.

Waru shrugged, "I'm not." Kyo smiled to himself and nodded, wondering what was on Waru's mind. "Um... Kyo..." He began, Kyo looked at him. "Does that guy have a name?" He asked.

Kyo looked away, wishing he wouldn't bring the subject Kisaki up. "Why would you like to know that?"

Waru shrugged. "I just do."

It took Kyo a moment before answering, "Kisaki." He could hear Waru tasting the name on his lips, before nodding.

"Okay."

Kyo's hold around Waru's hand tightened for some reason, pulling him closer to him, walking faster. Waru looked around, "Anything wrong?"

Kyo smiled, "No, I just want to get to your place faster."

Waru smirked, "Oh really? And why's that?"

Kyo smiled, "I just do."

WaruxKyo: The Calander Hung Itself: Ch. 4

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Wed, 16 Jan 2008 04:29:12 GMT

Title: The Calander Hung Itself
Author: 304_pinkkiller & mrssleazoid
Chapters: /?
Genre: N/A
Rating/warnings: NC-17 / twincest, anal, oral, rape, drugs, obsession, abuse, ect.
Band(s): -----Dir en grey I guess.. and whatever Kisaki is considered. Possibly others later.
Pairing(s): WaruxKyo - KisakixKyo
Summary: Kyo meets his twin brother who his parents disowned as a child and who seems to have no limits. And what's this about Kyo's psycho boyfriend? DUNDUNDUN! ~~haha, gay summary.~~
Disclaimer: We own computers, yes?
Notes: Comments=♥

Archive
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3

Sitting down at one of the booths, a waiter came up. "What would you two like?" he asked, a bit too cheerily. Kyo blinked and pointed to something on the menu Waru was looking at and Waru smiled, pointing to it as well for the man to see.

"We'll have this to share." he said, and handed the thin booklet to their waiter who nodded humbly before walking away. Kyo blinked at Waru who shrugged, "What? Do you not want to share with your dear brother?" he teased, voice flat.
Kyo sighed and shook his head, "No... Its fine" he watched as Waru slipped into his own world, and thought about everything. What did Waru really want from him? `He told me not to fall for him but... How is that possible with everything he does?` Kyo didn't want to say it out loud, even in his thoughts, but he could feel himself already falling far. It was an interesting feeling, but he wondered how it would even work. They were brothers. And he couldn't very well tell Waru, he was basically forbidden to. But he knew it was beginning to happen either way; and as he grinned to himself, he decided he'd play this game as well.

When their food came, he leaned back into the seat as it was placed down. The waiter left yet again and he began to sip his drink. Waru looked down at him, "Aren't you gonna eat?" Kyo shook his head, smiling slightly. Waru raised an eyebrow. The fuck..? He shook his head and went to eat his portion of the food.

His eyes went wide when he felt Kyo's hand begin to rub at the crotch of his pants, and he side glanced to see Kyo simply sitting there with a bored expression, sipping his drink... with one hand under the table. It was unexpected, he didn't think Kyo would...well really, he didn't care, it felt good. Why dwell on it?

Kyo didn't plan on finishing this here, but he wasn't exactly hungry right now and had other things on his mind. He just wanted to tease Waru. He knew he could feel it as he continued to eat, pretending he didn't, and the blonde just sipped at his drink thinking of everything happening and not really about what could come and continued to work his hand against Waru's slowly hardening crotch.

"Ngh..." Waru let his head fall down, having a hard time acting as if he wasn't affected by Kyo's actions. He leaned back to look back at him, eyeing his behavior. Kyo still acted as if he wasn't doing anything special and Waru felt his defense falling off of his shoulders as he breathed out softly. He wanted to grab Kyo's hand and shove it down his pants, making him jerk him off right on the spot.

But for some reason, he just couldn't.

"Kyo..." Waru said in a low tone, getting a humming reply from his brother. "Stop it." he said and let his head fall back to lean against the wall as his lips parted to let out a suppressed low moan.

"Okay." Kyo removed his hand with a shrug, still not watching Waru.

Waru's eyes shot open, "Don't stop, you idiot." He tugged at Kyo's hand, making it return to pay attention to his trapped sex.

Kyo chuckled under his breath as Waru put his hand on Kyo's, adding more pressure. "Be like that and I will..." Kyo threatened with a playful grin, slipping his finger's down to tease just below where Waru's sac would be under his pants, earning himself a glare from the other. Once he felt that Waru was fully erect, he gripped the shaft through the thin cloth and began to pump him slowly before stopping abruptly. Waru's eye's turned on him and Kyo just shrugged, going back to giving his drink his attention. "I can't very well finish you off here... We might cause a scene, ya know?" Kyo said casually, eyes roaming the room slowly. He leaned back, eyeing the half finished plate with a slight smirk, "Ready to go?"

Waru's narrowed eye's directed lasers at Kyo for stopping, but he shrugged with a slight grunt, which obviously meant: "Whatever, as long as you hurry the fuck up."

Kyo smiled and waved the waiter down to their table, getting their stuff together before the pair left the restaurant. The blonde found it fun to fuck with Waru like this, get him back for the previous day, and it was just easier to not bother himself with confusions and just go along with it. Turning his head to the other, he grabbed his hand, "So, where we going?"

Waru felt a twitch when he looked at Kyo who was watching him so... casually while holding his hand. "I guess my place, unless of course you feel like going home.." he tried to sound as uncaring as he could, but with the extreme hard on he was trying to ignore, he couldn't exactly convince Kyo he didn't want to take him somewhere and fuck his brains out.

Kyo rolled his eyes, "Now if that's the case, you can go to your place and I'll just find somewhere else to crash." though he knew Waru didn't want that, it still got on his nerves.

Waru rolled his eyes, "Fuck you, you're coming with me." he said, tightening his grip on the blondes hand.

"Oh, am I?" Kyo answered in a sarcastic tone. Waru had enough of it and quickly pulled him to his side, pushing him up the brick wall behind them, sealing their lips together in a rough kiss while pressing his crotch against Kyo's. As he pulled away he grabbed Kyo's hair, pulling his head back to make him look at him. That innocent, wondering look he used to get wasn't there; instead he was just faced with a slight smirk on the other.

"You get off on this, don't you? Acting like you can control me?" Waru stated, watching him with a nasty glare.

Kyo stared back, "So what if I do?"

Waru leaned in, "Kyo, I have no problem with fucking you right here in the crowd. But I know you do, "He licked the side of Kyo's face, "So if you don't want me to cause a scene then you better follow me and do as I say." He watched Kyo's eyes growing big, obviously spotting something behind Waru. Waru turned around to see nothing special other than a bunch of people.

Kyo immediately nodded, rushing away with Waru still in his grip, "Come on, Waru," He hurried.

Waru followed, "Who did you see?"

Kyo kept looking back to see if anyone was following them. "No one."

"Was it him?" Waru stopped, staring right back to see if anyone looked worse than the rest, but Kyo began pulling at Waru's hand again,

"He's never in this area of town... I don't..." Suddenly he could hear his name being called out from a distance, "Fuck..." He said in a panicking voice as he began to almost run. Waru noticed the fear in Kyo's voice and pushed him inside and alley, showing him a door that lead into a cellar which no one seemed to use.

"Come on." Waru moved as Kyo followed through a long dark corridor.

"Waru, where are we going?" He clenched his hand around Waru's, scared to run into something, or someone. "Aren't there any lights?"

"No." Waru said, beginning to move up another flight where he stopped at the top of. Kyo moved in close to him as they both listened for any sound from someone who might be following them. "We shook him off." Waru said, moving his hand over Kyo's hair before once again sealing their mouths together.

Waru pulled away and once again began walking up the stairs, finding a door where they could exit on the other side of the building. Right on the other side of the road was the door to Waru's.

Kyo breathed out a relieved sigh once they finally got inside and Waru locked the door.

Waru looked at him, "I should've just let him find you."

Kyo threw a pissed off glare back at him. "So, what now?" Kyo asked.

"Well, you still have a fucking boner to take care of, and it's not your own."

Kyo rolled his eyes; running from Kisaki didn't exactly make Waru's orgasm his priority. Waru saw this and immediately pulled Kyo against him, nuzzling at his neck then bit his ear, making the other shiver, "If you're going to dwell on it then go back. Letting him get to you won't help anything," he whispered into Kyo's ear, nipping it before continuing, "I'd appreciate if you'd let go of what just happened and tend to your dear brother's problem." he could feel the familiar tension building up inside of Kyo and he pulled away to look at him.

Kyo stared up as him, uncertain because he knew continuing this would only anger Kisaki further; who knew what he might do. "But... What if he..."

Waru silenced him, taking Kyo's bottom lip between his teeth, "Take care of my problems," he started, slipping his hands up Kyo's sides under his shirt, "And I'll take care of yours.." his deal held an obvious double meaning and Kyo suddenly felt warmth.

He let out a short, shaky breath and nodded his relieved surrender. Leaning his head against Waru's shoulder, he nipped his collarbone before leaning in to
whisper, "You wouldn't happen to have more of those popsicles, would you?"

Waru gave off a delighted purr when he heard Kyo's question. "Of course..."
He watched Kyo, wondering what he was thinking about doing to him. He decided to not worry since it involved Kyo and a Popsicle; that was all he needed right now.
Kyo pulled his shirt off, "good." He walked over to the kitchen, beginning to dig in the fridge. Waru pulled his shirt off as well as he began moving to his bedroom, finally letting his pants drop. He took a hold of himself, letting out a soft sigh to his actions. Slowly he began to stroke himself, waiting for Kyo to arrive.

A moment later Kyo walked in with a Popsicle in his mouth, sucking on it with a skilled mouth. He watched Waru on the bed with his hand in his boxers, before meeting his stare.
"Come here..." Waru said as he released the hold he had on himself.

Kyo was grinning around the Popsicle in his mouth at how much Waru wanted this. For a second he stood there, entertaining the idea of what Waru would do if he just plainly walked away, but he wouldn't do that anyways. Walking slowly over to him, he undid his pants with one hand and dropped them before climbing up to straddle Waru's waist. He pulled the ice from his mouth, sucking with an audible pop as it was pulled from his lips, and leaned down to quickly kiss his brother immediately moving his tongue between his lips forcefully. Waru moaned into the kiss and wanted to flip Kyo over and fuck him but didn't move, his curiosity stricken by Kyo's play with the Popsicle.

Kyo pulled away and moved slowly down Waru's body so that he was now straddled over his thighs. He smirked, reaching out to circle a nipple with the tip of the ice, pulling a sharp gasp from Waru's throat. He giggled softly, "Cold, eh?" The blonde one continued to stroke it over Waru's hardening nub until it turned a dark red before leaning down and taking it into his only slightly warmed mouth. Waru's drawn out moan was wonderful to Kyo's ears and he wanted to tease him more, repay him. Dragging the edge of the slowly melting icicle in detailed patterns over Waru's chest, receiving contented sighs and more moans whenever he'd run over the other nipple with it.

"Fuck... Kyo... Fuck..." Waru bit out, straining his hips, chest arching up to Kyo's ministrations. The corner of Kyo's lips tugged and he took the pleading, kissing and biting his way down Waru's chest and stomach until he came to the stiffness coming from between his legs. Tongue poking out slightly from the corner of his mouth in playful concentration, Kyo lowered himself to be level with the leaking cock. Waru lifted himself, watching Kyo who looked up at him with a mischievous grin.

Kyo brought the Popsicle down with him and began rolling the length of it all around the sides of Waru's dick, making him moan louder, gripping the sheets and cursing Kyo in the few words he could get out between his gasps. "Kyooo..." he growled out, voice strained as he forced himself not to make Kyo stop. It was such torture though it felt so fucking good.

Kyo giggled softly, letting his tongue out to lick up all that would drip from the flavored ice, "I'm gonna ride you... but I want you to fucking need it.." he warned teasingly, still continuing to use the ice, circling the tip around Waru's head. He lifted up a bit to take all of Waru into his now hot mouth, sucking him as if his cock were the Popsicle instead.

'Now wait...' Waru tried to think clear. 'Is Kyo telling me I should need him?' Waru's mind was foggy from the actions of his brother. 'Shouldn't it be the opposite?'
"Ah, fuck..." He forgot what he was thinking about as soon as Kyo's mouth was all over his cock.

Waru's hand found their way into Kyo's blonde mess of hair, "I envy every, single, Popsicle you've ever had." he breathed out as Kyo began making those soft noises from the back of his throat in reply. Waru arched his back slightly, trying not to buck into Kyo's mouth.

Waru reached out for the ice-cream in Kyo's hand, stealing it from him. Kyo released Waru from his mouth to look up at him, pouting. "My ice-cream..." He whined.
Waru smirked and pulled him back up to him, holding it out for him to suck. Kyo took it in his mouth, not breaking the eye contact in-between the two, beginning to suck on it hard

Waru watched it all, feeling his lips part at the thrill by just watching Kyo. Kyo moved on to the tip, before biting it off, making Waru hiss. Kyo leaned in to Waru, kissing him harshly. Waru snuck in his tongue, stealing the ice tip into his own mouth. Once again Kyo pouted and Waru bit his lip.
"Do you need me?" Kyo asked, rubbing his hips over Waru's, making them both moan softly.

Waru looked away, tempted to say a blunt 'no'. But he was still rock hard from the earlier blow job and he knew it needed to be taken care of.
"I lust for you." he answered instead, as he bucked his hips.

Kyo made a slight noise, almost a moan, when Waru moved against him, but he then looked into Waru's eyes defiantly. "You can lust after anybody, anything... but do you need me right now?" he dipped his head down, running his still cold tongue all the way up before taking the lobe of his ear between his teeth. He tugged slightly before blowing down along the cold, wet flesh, sending a chill through Waru's body.

He snatched the Popsicle from Waru's hand and brought it between them, lifting his hips and then pressing the half melted ice to the bottom of his brother's dick, holding it there. "Don't worry... just tell me when you're ready..." he teased sarcastically. There was something in the tone of his voice as he grinned down at Waru; he wanted to push him to his limit, wanted him to need him so bad that he'd fuck him even rougher than their past two experiences together. He wanted to force Waru into taking control of him, not take it of his own will.

Waru was about to lose it. He began shaking off of every sensation that hit him. "Kyo..." He breathed out, moving his hands along the blonde's sides to rest on his hips. Kyo hummed a reply while still teasing him. "You should get out of your boxers." Waru said in a forced calm voice.

Kyo replied by pressing his hips down harder on Waru's, trapping the ice-cream in-between them, making Waru whimper under his breathe, tossing his head back.
"Okay...." He said as his eyes fixated on Kyo's. "Fucking enough."

He bucked his hips harsh, causing Kyo to lose his balance as Waru shoved his hand down for the ice-cream, tossing it away on the wall. "That'll cause a stain." Kyo stated. Waru rolled his eyes as he took a hold on Kyo's boxers tugging on them. "Just... get them... OFF." The seams ripped and Kyo was now completely naked on top of Waru.

"I liked those..." Kyo pouted, moving his hands over Waru's waist.
"Too fucking bad, then." He pushed Kyo down on him, feeling Kyo's erect dick rub against his own, making them both moan out.

Kyo's eyes slid closed as he moved his hips quickly against Waru's; now that his own was free he didn't have the will to tease any longer. "Damn it, Waru..." Pulling his hips up out of Waru's hold, he pushed himself down trapping the other's dick deep inside of him. His head fell back, releasing a low groan as he began to pant softly and rock his hips back and forth, Waru's cock being grinded inside of him but not in or out.

Waru hissed, digging his nails into Kyo's thighs and dragging them down, leaving bright red trails behind. "Fuck..." he moaned, eye's closed as he moved his hips slightly, wanting to slam up into Kyo.

Kyo rested his hands on Waru's chest to keep his balance as he slowly began to move up and down but not much, curving as he penetrated himself on his brother. His eyes came open as he hazily tried to watch Waru, fingers clenching and his nails digging into his chest as he continued to move.

Waru moved his hands along the scratch marks on Kyo's thighs, admiring the pale skin on him. He took a firm grip on his hips, pulling Kyo down on him roughly at the same time as he bucked his hips into him, making Kyo cry out.

Waru smirked, feeling how Kyo's rough behavior fell off of him rapidly and that pleading tone in his voice came back. He'd missed it.
Waru lifted Kyo's hips, beginning to control his movements with his hands. Kyo followed the lead and kept one of the hands on Waru's chest to help him move, as the other one snaked over Waru's stomach to take a hold of his own member.

Waru's eyes slid open as he watched the sight going on in front of him. He felt like he never wanted to close his eyes again, watching Kyo nailed on his cock, naked on top of him, making those heavenly whimpers and moans every time he thrust into him.

Kyo leaned back, putting his hand to the mattress behind him as he slammed his ass to meet Waru's thrusts. The hand on his cock sped up and he whimpered for Waru to take him harder. Waru watched him then sat up, situating himself onto his knees, leaning back still on one hand for leverage as he bucked violently into Kyo, making him moan louder and louder. His free hand slid up Kyo's body, and Kyo quickly took two of his fingers into his mouth, sucking at them desperately.

Kyo's eyes shut tight as he could feel himself getting ready, but before he was aware, he came over his own stomach and hand, body shaking as he tried to keep his balance on top of Waru, sucking harder at the digits presented to him. Waru shouted from the pleasured shock when Kyo's insides tightened drastically around him, and after thrusting a few more times into the pressure, he was forced into an orgasm of his own. Once Waru was finished, Kyo collapsed backward on his back between Waru's legs, panting heavily. He ran his clean hand through his hair, pushing it from his face as he caught his breath, lolling his head to the side to look downward to Waru who he was sill half on top of.

Waru's hand fell down to rest on Kyo's thigh, as he enjoyed the feeling of his racing heartbeat. The other hand was still holding him up. They stayed silent for a while, catching their breaths before Waru moved closer, pulling out fully at the same time, lying down next to Kyo.
Kyo's eyes followed Waru's movements and when he was down he smiled softly, feeling the aftersexcoma closing in on him.

Waru ran a finger down the side of his sweaty face, feeling Kyo's hand taking a hold of his own as Kyo moved it to his mouth, kissing Waru's fingertips.
"I guess I do need you after all..." Waru said in a plain voice.
Kyo's eyes opened and he didn't say anything in reply. Waru pulled him to him. "Kyo, get a pillow."

That's when Kyo noticed they were lying with their heads on the wrong side of the bed. He tried to reach for one with his hand but failed miserably since he didn't move a single millimeter. He gave up and placed his head on Waru's chest instead, "good pillow." He patted Waru's stomach. Waru only growled a reply.

Kyo gave a slight laugh and moved his legs to push the pillows to where he could reach. He gave one to Waru who put it under his head.

"Aren't you going to come here so I can hold you?" he asked, pushing lazily at Kyo.

Kyo nuzzled him, clinging tighter to his body, "It feels so nice... I don't wanna move..." Waru rolled his eyes and grabbed Kyo, pulling him up so that he was against his chest again, arms wrapped around the blonde. Kyo didn't mind at all, turning to face his dark haired twin he nuzzled against him as close as he could. "You're warm..."

"I thought I was cold..?" he raised a brow, idly playing with strands of Kyo's hair. Kyo shook his head.

"Don't be a smart ass..."

"And you're one to talk after that?"

Kyo shrugged off Waru's words with a slight smile, feeling so much better right now than he ever did with Kisaki. He didn't know if it was because they were brothers or what, but he didn't care at the moment. He just wanted to snuggle into Waru's heat, whether the other would protest to cuddling or not; he didn't care about that either, he thought as he began to softly nibble at Waru's arm which was against his chin.

"The fuck.. are you doing?" Waru asked, lifting his head only slightly to look at Kyo oddly.

Kyo let go for only a second to say, "Eating, what does it look like" before continuing.

Waru let his head back down with a sigh, "You're weird, Kyo."

Kyo snickered, "Why, because I make you soft?"

Waru smirked, still feeling the small bites that Kyo was placing on his arm. "And all this time I thought you made me hard."

He could feel Kyo's lips forming a smile, "Well... That too." Waru decided not to answer that, manly because he wasn't sure at all what he felt against his new lover, and brother. He could feel Kyo's tongue joining the game; he shivered, closing his eyes to the treatment. A moment passed by, before Kyo spoke to a half asleep Waru. "Waru...?"

"Hmm?"

"I'm hungry."

Waru felt Kyo's hand traveling across his stomach and chest, caressing his skin. "I figured you are since you are trying to eat my arm." He said with a yawn.
Kyo chuckled before moving his hand to rest over Waru's waist, cuddling the crook of his neck. Waru leaned in to Kyo's touch and kissed the side of his forehead. "Want me to make you something?" He asked, still being rather full from the restaurant, he actually couldn't believe he even suggested to cook a meal for someone else than himself.

Kyo purred, "You can cook?"

Waru smirked, "It's one of my best talents, except from fucking you,"

Kyo placed a small bite on Waru's neck, "Then you must be quite good. I can't cook at all." Waru could feel his skin chill from the brief sensation Kyo left on his skin and he held onto him tighter, but Kyo was determined to eat so the blonde pried himself from Waru's hold. "Come on... Show me your master skills at making cereal" he teased before getting up and leaving the room in all his nakedness.

Waru laughed at Kyo, but then rubbed his face with his palm in exasperation. What the hell was going on, he thought. Sitting up, he stretched his body and climbed out of bed to follow Kyo out to the kitchen. When he entered, Kyo was sitting on top of the counter waiting for him.

Kyo smiled a bit before getting down, "Hey... I'm gonna go take a shower, is that okay?...Or do you wanna join?"

The offer was tempting but Waru decided against it, "Nah, go ahead. If I come with you I'll end up fucking you again and then how clean would you be?" he laid out the logic, his voice holding sarcasm as he opened the fridge to find stuff to make for Kyo.

Kyo smiled with a slight blush, "Okay.." he was about to walk away but turned around, grabbing Waru and kissing him hard on the lips before walking away, rushing to the bathroom once he turned the corner. When he got in there, he stared at himself in the mirror, frowning at how reddened his cheeks were; he could feel his pulse even. It was just a kiss, they'd fucked 3 times already so why the hell would it make him react this way just to kiss him, they're even kissed uncountable times in just the past two days. Sighing, the blonde stepped into the shower, turning it on to feel the relaxing water hit him as he thought through everything.

Waru brought his hand to his lips, touching the skin where Kyo's lips just had been. For some reason a stupid smile plastered itself on his lips. He quickly slapped himself and shook his head, wondering what the fuck he was doing.
He looked in the direction of the shower, several thoughts of the blonde being naked and wet inside crossed his mind.
He sighed before pulling out some chicken and frozen vegetables, deciding to focus on making Kyo a nice dinner instead.

15 minutes later Kyo came out with a towel around his waist, with his hair all messy. He walked up to Waru who was currently facing his wok. He snuck his arms around Waru's waist, kissing his neck. "Smells good..." He said.
Waru nodded, "It'll taste better." He turned around in Kyo's embrace, looking at him. He looked so pleased in a way. Kyo leaned in to capture Waru's bottom lip with his teeth, looking into his eyes at the same time. He could feel Kyo beginning to nibble on his middle piercing right before moving away. "You better have some clean underwear for me."
Waru smirked, remembering why he'd ripped them off in the first place, "I'd rather see you walking around without." Kyo rolled his eyes and pinched his side, "You want your neighbors to drool over me as well?"
Waru poked Kyo's stomach, "Good point. It's in my closet, a box on the left side." He pointed to Kyo who wandered away.

Waru suddenly remembered all the toys he had in his closet, and with a smirk he hoped Kyo would find each and every one of them.
He placed Kyo's dinner on a plate, moving to the table to set it down, getting them both something to drink while waiting for his brother.

Kyo turned on the light inside the closet, looking through the large space until he found what Waru was talking about. Opening it, he pulled out a pair of black boxers and put them on. Shifting his eyes, he noticed a lump under all the clothing in the corner. Curiosity took over, though he knew it wasn't right to go through stuff, but ignored that and dug his hand inside, pulling out a Gallant-vibe from the back. His eyes went wide for a second and he shoved it back into its place, leaving the closet in a rush of embarrassment. Looking around the now dark room to see if Waru was there, he sighed and went out.

As soon as he came into the living room he could smell the food Waru had been cooking, and turned the corner to see his brother at the table waiting for him; it made him almost laugh because Waru was still completely naked. He sat down beside Waru, where his food was placed and looked at it nervously. "You're not going to eat anything?" Waru just shook his head and nodded to the plate for Kyo to eat. Kyo bit his lip and nodded, picking up his sticks and beginning to eat quickly.

Kyo took a sip of the drink Waru had brought out and looked at him, chewing his lip again, "Um... When should I be going..?" he asked, unsure of if he was imposing on Waru by being there.

Waru shrugged, "Whenever you want, I guess." He rose to walk into the bedroom, getting a pair of lose pants before heading back.
He moved to sit down next to Kyo, leaning in to place his head in the crook of Kyo's neck. His arms nestled their way around Kyo's waist, trying to get some warmth off of the blonde.

Kyo sighed before sneaking a hand up to nestle its way over Waru's cheek and into the mess of dark brown hair belonging to his brother.
"Then where will you go?" Waru asked.
Kyo's hand fell down from caressing Waru's hair, picking up the last pieces of food on his plate. "Home, I guess."

"To your boyfriend..." Waru let his hold of Kyo go, moving away to clear the table.
"Waru..." Kyo tried to get Waru to look at him. Waru turned around "What, Kyo?" The tone in Waru's voice made Kyo hesitate on what he was going to say.
Kyo looked away, "It's not that easy..."

Waru snapped, "Then what Kyo? Can you honestly say that you still have feelings for that ass hole?"

"No... I never did." Kyo said, his eyes pointed to a spot on the floor.

"What? Then why the fuck do you insist on going back to him again?!" Waru yelled.

Kyo's eyes lifted to glare at Waru, "Because I have to! I'm already in enough shit as it is"

"Why should I believe that? You don't have to do shit for that bastard!"

Kyo's eyes narrowed, "Well according to him, I'm such a good fuck that he has to keep me all to his fucking self! Waru, this wasn't my fucking choice so drop it..." he ran his hands through his hair; it was all happening the same really. Having sex with Kisaki just a few times led to him having to live there, be his, and now this was happening. He could see the whole thing happening again.

"But you have a fucking choice Kyo; you don't have to be with him just because he's trying to make you?" Waru moved closer, not breaking their eye contact. "Have you lost yourself totally?" He was now too close for Kyo to handle as he stepped away to the bedroom, beginning to collect his clothes.
Waru followed, standing in the door opening. "What are you so scared of?"

Kyo didn't answer. Instead he pulled his shirt on, ignoring Waru, trying to get past him. Waru blocked the opening, having Kyo really close as he tried to push by. "You're going to let him rape you, aren't you?" His eyes pierced through Kyo, who refused to return the look. "Yes. I am." He looked down, hurt in his eyes as he pushed past Waru, moving to the front door quickly.

Waru watched him, not sure what he felt right now. He went over to the kitchen, opening the window, pulling a smoke out from a package lying around.
He could hear the door slam shut.

Kyo made his way to the streets; again it was dark out but not as late as last time. Maybe Kisaki would go easier this time. Kyo only hoped he was passed out again by the time he got home. He patted his pocket for a cigarette, but then was reminded he had forgotten them. "Fuck..." he spat under his breath, ruffling his hair in frustration.

Finally getting himself home, he went the way he left, hoping that if Kisaki was still waiting for him he'd be in the living room. Quietly he climbed the rusted railings and slid the window open. There wasn't any sound from inside, so he at least knew Kisaki wasn't in the room. After carefully getting inside, Kyo shut the window and locked it, going to the door that was cracked. He could hear water running from down the hall and guessed Kisaki was in the shower or something. His heartbeat began to quicken again and his head dropped down as he walked to the door giving it a slight knock.

There was silence before he heard Kisaki's voice on the other side, telling him to come in. Kyo hesitated a moment before stepping inside, looking up to see Kisaki standing there getting dried off. "And where were you today? Out having someone else's dick inside you?"

Kyo bit the inside of his cheek and shook his head, "No... I just went out..."

Kisaki smiled and pulled Kyo to him, dropping the towel and wrapping his arms around the shorter one, "And what about yesterday? I'm sorry I hurt you this morning... You know how I am when I even think of someone else touching you..."

Kyo hated the sound of Kisaki's voice, the feeling of his fingers slipping through his hair. He shook his head, "I was raped" he said in a low, clear voice.

Kisaki cocked his head to the side and in one quick movement turned Kyo to face the other way, arms tightening around his waist as he bent him over the sink. "See? This is why I can't let a slut like you get out..." he whispered against Kyo's ear, naked body bent over Kyo's clothed one. One hand slipped up the front of Kyo's shirt, the other brushing hair from his neck, "You're mine, but no one can resist fucking you..."

Kyo's eyes closed tightly as he held himself over the sink, listening to the blunt words Kisaki spoke. It would never end, and it would always be the same.

Waru still sat in the window, still holding the cigarette in his left hand. The smoke had run out a long time ago, Waru was still waiting for the door to open again.
Another moment passed by and he threw it away. He moved to his bathroom, beginning to dig around for his needles. All he could think about was that somewhere, Kyo was most likely being raped.

He pulled out a small box, emptying it, finding his needle. Taking a hold of his ear, beginning to pierce one hole after another, trying to feel the pain it should cause him. Some blood began running down his neck.

He threw the needle away, "Fuck..." He moved back out in his apartment trying to find his cell phone. He was too proud to call Kyo, but maybe Kyo would call for him...
He slowly walked into his bedroom, moving the pillows back to their original place.

He crawled under the covers, placing his phone next to him on the covers. He rolled around, trying his hardest to fall asleep, having a feeling that wouldn't happen anytime soon.

MELT BANANA @TAMPA, FL

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Wed, 14 Nov 2007 03:12:28 GMT

FOR ANYONE IN FLORIDA
Okay, I know that there are only like... 3 people on my Flist(since my friends cut) that live in this god forsaken state, but I'm asking anyway because it's worth a shot with you... very limited fuckers.
Melt Banana is doing a concert in a bunch of places in Florida in like a week.... Who's going to their Tampa(Ybor) show? Also, if you didn't already know about this and would like to go, here's the info :D

Wed, November 21st
9pm | $10/12 | All Ages
@ Crowbar
1812 N 17th Street
Ybor City
Ph#:813.241.8600
Information: http://www.aestheticized.com/

Yeah, I'm probably going. It's real fucking cheap. :) I hope lots of people I know will end up going because then I wont have to go with my bitch of a mother. ;_;

I'm leaving this public for now...

WaruxKyo: The Calander Hung Itself: Ch. 3

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Thu, 08 Feb 2007 04:36:37 GMT

Title: The Calander Hung Itself
Author: 304_pinkkiller & mrssleazoid
Chapters: 3/?
Genre: N/A
Rating / warnings: NC-17 / twincest, anal, oral, rape, drugs, obsession, abuse, ect.
Band(s): Dir en grey I guess.. and whatever Kisaki is considered. Possibly others later
Pairing(s): WaruxKyo - KisakixKyo
Summary: Kyo meets his twin brother who his parents disowned as a child and who seems to have no limits. And what's this about Kyo's psycho boyfriend? DUNDUNDUN! ~~haha, gay summary.~~
Disclaimer: We own computers, yes?
Comments:

Chapter 1
Chapter 2

Waru woke up a few hours later, squinting his eyes open towards the strong light that hit him. "Fucking sun..." He pulled a pillow over his head as his hand reached out to pull Kyo to him. Noticing the empty space next to him, he sat up. "Kyo?" he called out, thinking that the blonde may have gone to the bathroom. Rolling over to the side Kyo had been sleeping on, he could smell that his scent still remained. He grunted.

When Waru didn't recieve an answer he rose to look around. Still nothing. He went back to his bedroom to put a pair of pants on, before moving into the kitchen, sighing. "He'll be back..." he said to himself, knowing that he was right. Still, he couldn't help but miss the blonde's presence.

Digging around in the fridge he pulled out some breakfast, setting it on the table. He stopped as he noticed the blondes note and sat down, fingering it, thinking about Kyo's pretty hands that had been writing those numbers. He ate his breakfast before moving on to clean the livingroom.

"We sure made a mess Kyo," he said to himself as he looked over the pillows spread out and the table moved because of their foreplay on the floor. Not to mention all the stuff they apparently had spilled out.

Half an hour later he sat down, reaching to grab his phone, dialing the number that he had already memorized. He could hear a click and that someone was on the phone, "Kyo?" he asked, wondering if there was someone there.

"Who the fuck is this?" he heard a firm voice, asking him.

"Who the fuck are you?" Waru asked, voice raised a little, never afraid to take a fight.

"I'm the boyfriend of who you are calling."

Waru's mouth fell open, why didn't Kyo tell him he had a fucking boyfriend?! "Oh? What do I care, I want to speak to Kyo." he kept going, as if the call was nothing but a chat between friends.

"Well you're not going to speak to him. He's not capable of speaking right now."

Waru felt the anger rise inside of him, "What the fuck have you done to him!?" he said in an angry voice, trying to keep his calm. "If you've hurt him in any way I swear I'll..." He was interrupted by that slimy voice at the end of the line.

"Oh, don't worry. He likes it." Another click was heard as the other hung up.

"HEY!" Waru yelled out, knowing it was to late. He knew Kyo was in trouble and it was his fault. "Fuck..." He threw his fist into the wall. He pushed the phone down his pocket, quickly getting dressed. He hurried outside, not really sure about what to do, he still had no idea where Kyo was.

-

Kyo groaned, opening his eyes slowly. He felt cold water hitting him, but he was too numbed to really feel the full extent of it's chill. Crawling into a sitting position, he held himself and shivered, the skin of his arms feeling hardened under his fingertips. Reaching to the dial, he turned off the water and stood with shakey legs, stepping out of the tub. He stood infront of the mirror that hung from the door and looked over his body, slowly observing every mark that had been left. There weren't many that he could see, but he could feel that a majority of them were on his back; the back of his head and neck also in pain and he winced as he rubbed at the bothersome feeling.

As cautiously as he could, he opened the bathroom door just enough to peak out. The entire apartment was dark except for the light filtered through the cutains in the livingroom. It was bright enough that he figured it was sometime in the afternoon; how long had he been out? He could see Kisaki's naked body on the couch, syringe beside him as his usual companion. He was passed out again, the same as how Kyo was able to leave so freely the day before. Quietly stepping out of the bathroom and going into the bedroom they sometimes shared, Kyo quickly got some clothes on and took some money from Kisaki's case that he always saved for his drugs. He looked around, still paranoid, for his phone.

Going back out to the livingroom, almost sure that Kisaki wouldn't regain his conciousness anytime soon, Kyo looked around on the table, smiling in his success of finally finding it on the floor right under the edge of the couch. He picked it up and shoved it into his pocket, then was out of the apartment yet again within just a few moments.

Climbing down the gated staircase on the allyside of the building, Kyo jumped down to the pavement and headed down the streets to find something to eat. He was hungry after such a hassling night. A small smile was on his lips as he thought back on how easy it was to escape when Kisaki was so drugged up he didn't notice anything. His smile widened a bit when he thought of why he was in such trouble this time: Waru.

-

Waru walked around the block down to some crappy store to buy another pack of smokes. He was worried about Kyo, and pissed off at the same time. He walked into a park to sit down, leaning his body against a big tree with his legs spread wide apart, taking as much room as he could as he lit a cigarette.

He found an arguing couple a few feet away rather entertaining as he listened with full interest. After a few moments he felt his cell vibrating and he opened it up to see an incoming text message from Kyo.

"Hey... Where are you?"

He smirked. He felt relieved that he seemed to be okay.

"In your pants?" was his answer.

It only took a minute for the phone to vibrate again. This time it was a call, "Mhm?" Waru answered, putting another cig inbetween his lips.

"Where are you, bastard?"

Waru leaned back, "Aren't we polite?"

"Come on," He heard his brothers pleading, rushed voice; that innocent plea made his entire body shiver.

He continued, "Park down my block. Get something to eat."

He heard Kyo smile on the other line, "Already did." He hung up.

Waru placed the phone back his pocket, wondering who the man he had spoken to earlier was.

About 15 minutes later he saw his twin walking down the street towards him. He didn't bother to rise to gain his attention. He watched Kyo looking around before settling his eyes on Waru and strolling over to him.

Kyo was smiling, which Waru found odd, when he went over. The blonde sat on his knees facing his brother. He couldnt held from feeling so many different emotions from the recent events, but he kept himself as retained as he could. "Hey," Kyo said, giving him a slight nod. So nervous.

Waru pulled a cigarette from his pack and held it out to Kyo, "Need a smoke?" he asked with his usual crooked smirk.

The blonde nodded his thanks and took it, putting it between his lips. He dug his hands deep into his pockets for a lighter, "Heh.. I guess I forgot them at home, you got a--" his words dropped and his eyes grew wide when Waru leaned to him, pressing their cigarettes together to light it. He lingered there longer than needed, just staring into Kyo's eyes, searching them. Kyo felt uncomfortable but he couldn't look away.

Waru was the one to pull away, leaning back into his previous position against the tree, a suddenly serious feeling comming from him as he inhaled his cancer, "I called you, but it wasn't you who picked up this morning. Where'd you go?" Part of him hoped Kyo wouldn't say home; Kyo couldn't live with someone like that. At least thats what he hoped. He could feel Kyo's whole mask was a lie as it fell slack for a split second when the call was mentioned.

"Oh.. I guess I was asleep.. Heh, sorry" the blonde one brushed off, again rubbing the back of his neck out of nervous habit but trying to ignore the pain he was reminded of. So that was why Kisaki had his phone.. Kyo didn't want to think of what had been said.

"I really didn't think you had a boyfriend." Waru said casually.

Kyo looked past the people in the park, letting his eyes rest upon something random as he sighed, "Should I feel bad for not telling you?" He asked, scared that Waru would push him away.

Waru shrugged, "No, it's up to you what you want to share with me, I couldn't care less anyway."

"Oh..." Kyo answered, Waru continued.

"I know you don't love him, though."

Kyo looked at Waru, "And how would you know that?"

Waru looked back at him, "`Cause I asked you yesterday." Waru put his cigarette to his mouth once more, dragging the smoke in.

"I never answered that" Kyo said, a bit annoyed with the way Waru seemed to assume.

Waru wrinkled his nose, scratching it. "Whatever." They spent a moment in silence as they both finished their smokes. Waru looked over to Kyo who seemed to have his mind occupied with thoughts. He was still curious about the man he had spoken to earlier. "Kyo, your boyfriend..." Waru began, quickly being interrupted by Kyo.

"I don't want to talk about him, Waru."

Waru looked at him before he snapped back, "Why? Because he likes to rape you?"

Kyo looked at Waru with cold eyes, "Comes from the one telling me he could rape me last night.."

Waru chuckled, "Oh, but I didn't, did i? And anyway, if I did, you would have liked it.”

Kyo looked away, knowing it most certainly would be the truth, he sighed, "whatever."

Waru shrugged again, "I hope for your sake he didn't find the marks I made on you."

Kyo bit his lip, shaking his head, “It wouldn’t have mattered anyway..” He muttered with a slight scoff. Moving over, he leaned against the tree next to Waru, staring into the opposite direction of him. He stared at the cherry of his cigarette, thinking deeply.

Waru was doing the exact same, though neither of them noticed since they weren’t looking at eachother, and he wondered why the fuck such an angel would let himself live such a hell. Leaning his head back against the hard wood, he watched the smoke come slowly from his barely parted lips. “He did, didn’t he? He must have from what he did to you,” he knew he was just assuming what happened to Kyo, but he also knew that he was right.

Kyo turned his head with a glare, saying again, “It wouldn’t have mattered anyway.” Then he looked off again, “He would have found a different reason.. I just gave him a damn good one.”

“Maybe you did; you did of course fuck someone other than him, even if he is an asshole as I understand,” Waru started, finishing his cigarette and stubbing it out right next to Kyo’s who did it at the exact same time. “but that leaves no excuse for him to do that to you.” He took his blonde brother’s hand, holding it to the ground and getting up to straddle Kyo. “Because that privilege should be all mine..”

Kyo's mouth opened to Waru's sudden actions, letting out a faint gasp. Waru leaned in to stroke his cheek against Kyo, taking in his scent while pushing himself down on his crotch. He could feel Kyo's long fingers run over his back, as Kyo's head found the crook of his neck. "Kyo, are you trying to cuddle me?" Waru asked in a whisper, smirking while letting his fingers run through his hair before taking a grip, pulling his head back.

Kyo was forced to look up at Waru, slightly blushing, "Well you started it."

Waru smirked, running a hand down their bodies and beginning to rub the stiff fabric of his jeans, "You should know that I'm not into those things."

Kyo had to stick his tongue out at that, making a face, “Well at least it was good the few seconds it lasted,” he retorted sarcasticly. Waru nibbled at his lip peircing, silently staring hard down at Kyo from his position on the blonde’s lap, hand moving in rotated motions over Kyo’s. He could tell Kyo was trying not to moan. “Ah.. Waru, you’re doing it again…”

Waru cocked his head, “Doing what?” he asked with a sly grin.

“Turning me on, what does it fucking look like..” he tried to push up but couldn’t because Waru still held his hand pinned to the ground. “Waru, please? What about last night..”

“Last night I didn’t know. Now I do, and trust me Kyo; He won’t fucking touch you again..” he finished his statement only a small space from Kyo’s lips before crushing them together almost enough to bruise. The kiss was long and soon Kyo felt his lips part of their own will and his body relaxing against the tree behind him. He briefly wondered if anyone could see them, how disgusted they would be if they could.. but he couldn’t think for long as his entire mind clouded from what Waru was slowly doing to him.

Waru pulled back from the kiss, watching Kyo wth a smirk, "Have you ever had sex in a park?"

Kyo's eyes widened "Waru," He tried once again to get out of Waru's grip. "...don't you dare." He watched Waru with a worried glare.

Waru chuckled, "Don't worry, I'm not pulling my cock out in this weather." he leaned in again to brush his lips over Kyo's, feeling his breathe on his lips. "Are you hard already Kyo?" He asked with a teasing voice. Kyo glared at Waru, letting out a short grunt. Waru smirked, "Come on," He rose and took a hold of Kyo's arm, pulling him towards a resturant right across the street.

"Waru, what are you doing?" Kyo interrupted.

"I already bought us food," Waru answered in a low voice, "I'm having you for lunch."

They both walked in the resturant, looking towards the counter. no one in the staff seemed to be around as Waru quickly pulled Kyo into the customer's only restroom, locking it quickly.

He turned around, grabbing Kyo and placing him on the small table where the sink was at. "Waru, I'm not sure this is a good idea..." Kyo tried as Waru spread his legs, situating himself inbetween them, running his hands up the fabric on Kyo's thighs.

"No Kyo, it's a perfect idea."

Kyo leaned back despite his hesitation, looking up at Waru, unsure about the whole situation. “But what if he notices again..?” he asked as he ran his hands up under Waru’s shirt.

”So what if he does? Nothing will happen to you now,” Waru said, pressing himself hard against Kyo and rocking his hips for friction, leaning all the way over his blonde brother taking his lips again after pulling the other’s shirt off.

"Can you promise me that?" Kyo asked when Waru pulled away for air.

Waru looked at him, "I can't," Waru whispered, Kyo's eyes dropped, "But I'll do my best," He leaned in for another kiss as he began unbuttoning Kyo's pants, tugging them to get them off.

Kyo pulled at waru's shirt, making him remove it. He ran his fingers over his back, feeling the lines of the tattoo on his back as he pulled him to him, desperatly clinging onto his body, knowing he shouldn't be doing this.

Once Waru got the pants off, Kyo wrapped his legs around his waist tightly, grinding against him while letting out soft moans. Leaning up, he began to nibble and bite Waru’s neck, running his tongue in patterns over the tendered flesh. He slowly went up to suckle his brother’s ear, teasing the piercing that was there. Right now he couldn’t care less about anything that had happened, anything that would happen, as he concentrated on pleasing and being pleased.

Waru smirked as he worked on pulling himself out of his pants, climbing up onto the table and over Kyo until he was right before his head. Kyo looked up at him then shifted his eyes to the half erect length right under his chin. Lifting his head some, he began to lick and suck at the tip, that being the only part he could reach. Waru grinned down at the blonde, and once he saw an opening of those sweet lips, he shoved his cock deep into his mouth, forcing him to suck him off which Kyo was very eager to do.

Waru turned his head to watch the big mirror beside them, watching Kyo's head bobbing up and down his cock. "Kyo, look.." Kyo opened his eyes to look up at Waru. Noticing his turned head, he let his eyes drift to the side into the mirror. "You like what you see?" he asked, nestling his fingers into the other's hair while beginning to move his hips into Kyo's mouth. Kyo purred as a reply. "Do you like watching your brother's dick being shoved into your mouth?" Waru spoke again in a nasty tone. "Beautiful incest, isn't it?"

Kyo shut his eyes again, ignoring what Waru was saying and focusing on his member.

"Ah.. fuck Kyo.." Waru felt himself losing himself as Kyo began to massage his balls. He let out a soft moan to Kyo's delight, loosening the grip on his hair and letting his fingers drift to touch his neck and shoulders before moving back, grasping his hair tightly again, bucking his hips into his mouth.

Kyo winced when Waru began to thrust hard into his throat, trying to keep himself from choking from the weird angle they were in. He sucked harder as Waru sped up his motions then pulled his mouth away, looking up at Waru with pleading eyes.

“What?” Waru started, going down to his fours and crawling down Kyo’s body so that they were face to face. "Is this what you want?” he asked, his voice intimidating as he rubbed their erections together. God, it felt so good that he just wanted to take him without another word. “To be fucked by your brother? Again?” his brushed the tip of his cock along the crevice of Kyo’s ass, pushing with pressure against the opening.

Kyo bit his lip, widening his legs and pressing against the feeling and nodded. “Yes..” he breathed, nails scraping upwards on Waru’s lower back trying desperately to urge him on continuing. Waru smirked and got off of him completely, being rewarded with a delicious wimper.

“Come in here and take off everything.” he commanded as he went into the largest stall on the side. Kyo blushed at being ordered and got up obediently, slipping his pants all the way off and taking off his shirt before walking into the stall, locking the door behind him. His heart raced as he went over to Waru who was standing beside the sink. “Come here.” He said again, and Kyo did as he was told.

Once Kyo was in his reach, Waru grabbed him by the waist and pulled him against his own body, crushing him between himself and the wall. Kyo yelped but the noise was cut short when Waru locked their mouths together, dominating him with his tongue. Kyo melted against the cold metal wall as he rocked his hips against Waru’s, their dicks being crushed together. Waru grabbed the blonde’s legs without breaking their kiss and pulled them up to lock around his hips before shoving deeply inside without any preparation. Kyo screamed out in pain, but he liked it; he liked how rough Waru was and his scream quickly subsided to deep, hungry moans as the other continued to thrust into him with constant speed.

The moans Kyo gave off made Waru eager to slam into his brother harder, he could feel Kyo's nails digging into his shoulders which turned him on if possible even more. Kyo's name slipped off of his lips with every thrust he made before moving his hand to the cold wall behind them to be able to pull out more and use more force behind every thrust.

He wanted to jerk Kyo off, but couldn't without dropping his body to the floor. Waru moved his head to Kyo's, capturing his lips in a rushed kiss, "Kyo..." He breathed out. Kyo answered with a wimper, not being able to give any other coherent answer. "Touch yourself for me.." Waru finished.

Kyo threw his head back to the wall as Waru sped up. He could feel Kyo's right hand leave his shoulder to find it's way between their bodies, stroking himself rapidly. His eyes flew open as he felt Waru hitting that special place inside of him. "FUCK!"

Waru smirked, knowing exactly what he had managed to do. He continued to aim for that very spot, feeling himself about to explode.

Kyo tightened his grip on Waru’s shoulder, burying his face into the other and occasionally biting his brother’s neck when he had enough sense to. His body shook as he was nearing an orgasm and he bucked his hips into his hand tighter and tighter. “Ah… W-…Waru..” he panted, leaning back against the wall again, head lolling back.

Waru bit his lip and hooked his arms under Kyo’s legs, bringing them over his shoulders, “Hold on tight..” he panted though Kyo was way ahead of him, gripping the top of the stall for support. His eyes shut tight as Waru slammed into him against the wall, now able to reach around to grab him.

His hand immediatly found Kyo's cock that was dripping of precum. Too lost in his own pleasure to be gentle he tugged on him, making Kyo begin to slam his head back into the wall over and over again.

Suddenly Kyo let out a harsh cry, arching his back as he felt his release exit him, covering Waru's hand and his own stomach. Waru didn't need long to finish either as he thrusted in one last time before burying himself deep inside of kyo, letting his own release out. He panted heavily as he fell towards Kyo who wasn't exactly in a very comfortable position but didn't seem to mind letting Waru catch his breath.

Kyo whimpered and Waru looked at him, leaning in to kiss him before moving away, pulling out of him. He let Kyo's legs down to the ground, feeling Kyo's arms taking a hold around his shoulders to keep him steady. Waru licked the side of Kyo's sweaty face as Kyo let out a pleased sound.
"We better get out of here..." Waru said with an amused tone in his voice. "Someone's been screaming for us to open and let others in." He smirked.

Kyo's eyes looked around, "they did? I didn't hear that."

Waru bit Kyos lip. "Well you seemed to be focusing on something else, like you were supposed too." Waru moved back, "I'm still hungry."

Kyo blushed but only slightly and nodded, "Okay.. Heh, we stayin here then?" Waru nodded and began putting his clothes on which Kyo followed in doing quickly. Leaving the stall, Kyo opened the door slowly, embarassed that people had most likely heard them if they were at the door. Looking out, he saw quiet a few people waiting and he slowly stepped out. Waru pushed past Kyo with his eyes narrowed at the people, taking the blonde's hand as they walked by them. Some of the men waiting sent disgusting looks at the twins and Waru only found it amusing to get such a rise from people.

WaruxKyo: The Calander Hung Itself: Ch. 2

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Mon, 29 Jan 2007 18:00:47 GMT

Title: The Calander Hung Itself
Author: 304_pinkkiller & mrssleazoid
Chapters: 2/?
Genre: N/A
Rating / warnings: NC-17 / twincest, anal, oral, rape, drugs, obsession, abuse, ect.
Band(s): -----Dir en grey I guess.. and whatever Kisaki is considered. Possibly others later
Pairing(s): WaruxKyo - KisakixKyo
Summary: Kyo meets his twin brother who his parents disowned as a child and who seems to have no limits. And what's this about Kyo's psycho boyfriend? DUNDUNDUN! ~~haha, gay summary.~~
Disclaimer: We own computers, yes?
Comments: Lalala

Chapter 1

Waru snuck his arm around the waist of Kyo as they walked in the chilly evening air, when Kyo didn't push him away he continued deeper, moving his hand in under his jacket and shirt to rest on his skin. Kyo shivered, "you're so cold."

Waru nodded, "I tend to be." They walked in silence the remaining part towards the videostore, Waru slowly let his fingers run over the soft skin of Kyo's waist, wondering what was on Kyo's mind.

Walking like that was so comforting, and when Waru moved to walk behind him with both of his arms wrapped, he just wanted to stop and stand there just like that. But he just kept going, keeping himself in check until they got to their destination. Subtly, he pulled from Waru's arms to open the door and they went inside.

He kept his eyes away so Waru couldn't see his face, but he couldn't see his either; he was half wanting to know his brother's reaction when he had moved away. They both went to the same section, and just a few words were needed to be exchanged before they decided on two movies.

Grinning, Kyo picked them up and rushed over to the register desk, suddenly in a more energetic mood. His toothy smile was directed at Waru as he waited for his brother to come to the desk and pay for their stuff. Once he did, they again made their way out of the building and down the streets to Waru's place.

Waru enjoyed Kyo's mood change, he seemed to finally open up some more and talked to him without restraints. Waru once again unlocked the door to his apartment, this time letting Kyo enter first. Kyo smiled, still avoiding any eyecontact between them. Kyo plopped down on the sofa, beginning to prepare for the movie to start as Waru pulled out the soda and various treats they bought in the kitchen.

He watched as Kyo spread himself out on the couch, filling out most of the sitting area. Waru smiled to himself as he walked in the livingroom, turning the only light off, leaving them in complete darkness. He placed what he was carrying on the table as he straddled Kyo on the sofa and Kyo gave off a nervous giggle. Waru discretely rubbed himself against him before moving on to lay down behind him, sneaking his arm around Kyo's waist. Leaning his head onto the palm of his other hand to be able to see the screen over Kyo's blonde head. "Comfy?" he asked.

Kyo stared up at him only a few inches away, though Waru kept his eyes directed at the screan as their movie began to play. He was glad the lights were off and the other wouldn't be able to see a various reactions that little bit of contact had caused. Turning his head to the TV, the glare casting a slight glow over the two of them as their only light, Kyo nervously let his hand rest on Waru's arm which was still on his waist.

Waru pushed himself close to Kyo, softly beginning to stroke his stomach through the thin fabric of his t-shirt, breathing slowly on Kyo's cheek. He could feel Kyo stiffen a bit at his actions but after a while he seemed to relax into the touch. Waru's hand drawing circles on his shirt then moved under the fabric without any drastic movements, still following the movie with his eyes. Waru's hand moved down to brush his fingers over the strap of Kyos boxers.

Kyo tried to ignore Waru's actions, pretending as if he didn't even notice any of them; on the other side, he was anticipating them with a quickening heartbeat. When he felt pressure on the rim of his boxers he took in a quick bit of air, tensing up. He glanced up at Waru quickly but his twin had his eyes completely fixated on the television, so he gave in without a fuss, turning his head back to the screen as well. He couldn't concentrate at all though, all he could think about was the many possibilities that could come and how dirty each and every one of them, so temptingly dirty.

Noticing what he was about to push himself into, he quickly scooted to lean on his elbows, "Umm.. drinks?" he asked stupidly, not taking care in the fact that he had a drink right infront of him to reach for. He was blushing and almost hard again, sooo fucking glad that Waru had turned out the lights.

Waru smirked, "I'm good." Waru hadn't removed his hand from Kyo's stomach now that he was laying on his back. Kyo reached for his glass. "Getting hot?" Waru asked.

Kyo coughed, once again almost choking as he quickly put the drink down, looking back to Waru. "What?"

"It's hot in here, don't you think?" Waru asked.

Kyo nodded "Yeah.. It is."

Waru felt himself hardening just by watching the blonde. He pulled him down again to their old position as he pressed himself hard against Kyo, making sure he felt Waru's crotch against him. Waru's arm snuck over Kyo's waist again, keeping him down. His left hand searched it's way up to his neck, moving the soft strands of hair to the side. He moved in closer and lightly began to nibble on his earlobe, letting his teeth pull in one of his piercings. Hands scratching over Kyo's stomach.

Kyo immediately let out a startled moan, gasping at the feeling of the mouth so much like his own. The peircings together felt nice and as Waru's tongue came out to trace the shell of his ear his nails dug deeper into his skin, making the blonde wimper. "A-ah.. Wa-...Waru.." he breathed, trying to move himself from the temptation between Waru's legs but only being successful in arching his back as the other bit him hard on the neck. What was happening? Shouldn't he be pushing away, screaming at him for how sick this was instead of wimpering so helplessly? He couldn't help it now; he tried to tell himself to shove away, but his body just wouldnt listen as his hands gripped into the couch under him.

Waru breathed into his ear before moving on to place a trail of soft kisses down Kyo's neck, listening to the soft reluctant moans leaving his mouth. He moved his hand from Kyo's stomach to reach for Kyo's hand. Grabbing it, he pulled him over to face him. Waru pushed the hair out of his face as he watched him closely, Kyo's eyes were closed.

Waru pulled him closer towards him. He could feel he wasn't the only one hardening rapidly as their bodies connected. "Kyo.." Waru breathed out. Kyo opened his eyes, Waru looked into them for a second before sealing their mouths together, tasting his lips eagerly. Waru let his hand travel up Kyo's shirt, revealing his slim stomach, his muscles tensing under the touch.

The blonde couldn't stop it when he pressed his body to Waru, immediately parting his lips so that the other could enter. His hand fisted into a beltloop on his brother's pants, pulling his hips to his own though too afraid to move them. Their tongues stroked eachother in an almost hungry way and Kyo shivvered when Waru bit the tip of his softly.

Then Kyo pulled his head away, staring with wide eyes downward though he couldn't pull away from the body against him. "U-umm..Wa..Waru.. We're brothers...t-..twins" he breathed, a bit out of breath but stuttering more from his rushing feelings inside him. Part of him hoped that his brother would take the charge to stop them, because he knew that he couldn't do it himself.. even if he did want to. Their hips were still pressed tightly together and Kyo made a small noise, burrying his face against Waru, ashamed and embarassed that he couldn't stop himself.

Waru placed his arms around his brother, holding him to him, whispering in his ear. "A brother is someone you have by your side through the years of your childhood and adolescence, just because we share the same blood doesn't mean that we are what brothers are supposed to be.." His hands nestled their way up Kyo's shirt, pulling it up further and further. "I just want to feel the brother I never had..." Waru pushed Kyo away from his tight embrace to look at him. "Besides, you know you want it too..." Waru again leaned in to kiss Kyo's plush lips, nibbling on them, making the red color of them deeper.

Kyo slowly responded to the kiss as their tongues began playing roughly together. Their voices mixing together. Waru's hand snuck down to finger on Kyo's belt, opening it with a skilled hand. Easily, he slipped his hand inside of Kyo's pants. Kyo gasped as he noticed what Waru was up too. "Waru.." He began.

"Shh.." Waru silenced him with another bruising kiss as he stroked the outside of his underwear making Kyo moan softly into the kiss, though still with a worried expression on his face. He figured Waru was right though, they had never known eachother like brothers know eachother, and they had no connection before meeting that morning. They were just like strangers who happen to meet. But he still wanted to know him, to be his brother things would be very different though, he knew, especially if this kept on.

But how could it stop? If he ended this, he would end up regretting and feeling ashamed everytime they ever saw eachother again. He didn't want to anyways. Letting his eyes slip closed and silencing his small protests, Kyo drifted his hands upward shakily, one going into Waru's stiffly sprayed hair and the other tightening it's grip once again on his pants.

Waru broke their kiss yet again and grinned down at Kyo, "I see you're getting more used to this," he whispered in a teasing tone. Kyo barely nodded then suddenly let out a short cry of surprise when Waru pushed him onto the floor so that he was stattling his hips, Kyo on his back. Waru pulled out his hand from Kyo's pants, pinning his arms to the floor. He leaned in to treat his neck with his tongue, moving down towards his collarbone. Kyo whimpered to his actions as Waru teasingly rubbed their crotches together. “Fuck.” Waru breathed out as the fabric got in his way.

He leaned back up to pull at Kyo’s shirt and Kyo lifted a bit from the floor to help him get it off of him. Waru tossed it to the side as he watched Kyo laying underneath him on the floor, insecurity glowing in his eyes. Waru’s eyes followed the lines of his body, his hands touching the pale vulnerable skin, stopping slightly to fondle his nipples.

Kyo moved his head to the side as he let out another moan. Waru felt Kyo’s hands travel up the thighs of himself as he smirked. “Good boy…” Kyo’s hands nestled their way in under Waru’s shirt and Waru took the hint but didn’t care about it. He moved down, whispering, “Tonight it’s all about you. I’m going to make you feel good.”

Kyo looked back up at Waru, wondering what he meant. Waru once again leaned in to kiss his chest and nipples, slowly moving down towards his navel, tracing a circle around it before moving on lower.

Kyo's eyes shot wide when he once again realized what Waru was doing and sat up, grabbing his hair hard to get him to stop. But Waru wasn't phazed and let his head be pulled up as he continued to unzip Kyo's pants. Kyo wimpered and Waru grinned, "Pulling my hair won't make me any more willing to stop," he said, "it'll only make me wanna fuck you sooner.."

A small noise made itself out of Kyo's throat and he reluctantly let go. Waru pulled the blonde out from the confines of his pants and slid himself up Kyo's body, making sure to press himself roughly against his brother's naked and quite hard member. "Heh, very good boy.. You listen well. Wouldn't want to make this too quick.." he whispered against Kyo's lips before roughly mashing their lips together.

Kyo moaned into the kiss, eye's tightly shut and his hips taking a mind of their own as they pressed upward. "Nn..Waru.." he wimpered, pulling his lips from the other's. Waru watched his eyes, waiting for him to continue as he rocked against Kyo. "A-ah...Stop.." Kyo moaned almost desperately, then his eyes shot open as he moaned again before explaining in a rushed breath, "No.! Dont..stop...ugh, stop teasing me..please...." he couldn't get his thoughts situated as he blushed from his mixed up pleading.

Waru stared at him, a grin quickly forming as an idea came to mind and he leaned up so that he was sitting ontop of kyo, cock pressed against the blonde under him. Still rocking his hips, he began to move one hand down his own body in slow curvey movements, his other hand still playing over Kyo's.

The hand on his own made it's way to his belt, undoing it and soon the botton and zipper followed. Kyo was nearly panting as his eyes followed Waru's long fingers disapear into his own pants. He tried to buck his hips, but Waru secured his weight on him so that all he could get was the friction when he rolled his own hips ontop.

Waru wrapped his hand around his semi-aroused flesh, beginning to stroke himself slowly. He watched Kyo staring at his actions, letting one whimper after another leave his mouth, desperatly looking for something he could hold onto. Waru smirked again, matching the rythm of his hand on his cock to the grinding of his hips on top of Kyo.

His eyes opened to watch Kyo under him, letting moans drop easily from his lips. "Ahhh..."

"Waru... Please.." Kyo cried out, earning a slap on his side. He breathed out heavily as Waru let go of himself, leaning in close to Kyo.

"Shut up, beautiful," he eyed Kyo while biting his lower lip, grinding his hips heavily against his trapped length. He knew how frustrated he made Kyo, and the thought only turned him on more. He snaked his waist and hips as he moved down to settle on his thighs, finally letting Kyo free.

Kyo's hands automatically moved to touch his abandoned sex with closed eyes. Waru snuck his head down, biting Kyo's finger hard and Kyo's eyes flew open, "Waru!" His hands retreated before even reaching his sex.

Waru breathed on the head of him making him forget the pain in his finger, leaning his head back. "Don't make me tie you up," He let the tip of his tongue exit his mouth to brush over the slit, "I'm not sure if you're ready for that yet." Kyo bucked his hips in desperate need of friction. Waru placed soft kisses on the side of his cock, letting his tongue taste him to the fullest. Once reaching the head of him he looked up at Kyo, making their eyes meet for a second before taking him all in his mouth, enjoying the sounds leaving Kyo's mouth.

Kyo gasped in his pleasure, gripping Waru's hands but they were quickly pinned to the floor by the wrists. He squirmed under his brother's mouth, trying his hardest not to thrust. Waru bobbed his head up and down, creating a tight suction over the tip of Kyo's cock, one hand releasing the blonde's, his angel's, wrist to fondle his sac beneath the length as he now licked up and down the underside over the large vein, making Kyo shiver.

"F..Fuck..Waru..." he mewled uninteligently, other obsceneties following under his breath, nails digging into the carpet, back arching upward beautifly. Waru thought he would cum just by listening to Kyo's sweet voice moaning his name. He purred deep down in his throat as he once again took all of Kyo in his mouth, deepthroating him, passing the vibrations from his vocalchords onto the head of Kyo as he moaned out more intense every time Waru took him in.

He took a hold of the base, jerking him off roughly at the same time as he gave all his attention to the tip of Kyo, letting his tongue trail the slit. Kyo arched his back, unable to not buck his hips anymore. Waru felt Kyo's fingers nestle their way into his hair, he fastened his pace until Kyo pushed his head all the way down, meeting up with a hard thrust. His mouth fell wide, head falling back against the floor uncaring of the force it hit as a tight gasp was dragged in and he came into Waru's throat, his cock being shoved all the way in.

Kyo's orgasm was quick to pass and his body went limp on the floor, hands falling from Waru's hair. His face was hot as he ran a hand over it, deep breaths still escaping, eyes closed and not wanting to open as he was so content to just lay there and not think.

Waru swallowed as much as he could from Kyo's seed coming down his throat, he moved on to lick him clean. He took his time and when he felt that he was finished he raised his head, watching Kyo slowly coming down from highs of his orgasm. He crawled over Kyo's body, leaning in to give him a sweet kiss.

Kyo looked up at him, watching him carefully, blushing "What about you?" he nodded to Waru's crotch.

Waru shook his head. "I'll let yo owe me one." He fingered along Kyo's face, admiring the features of it.

Kyo frowned, wanting to repay him now; seeing him with his dick still out and hard made him want it so badly. He wondered of it would feel like his own, taste like his own.. The intense gaze that resembled so much his own made him blush and after just a few seconds he had to look away.

"Don't look away," Waru purred, Making Kyo close his eyes totally instead. "My Kyo is not happy with something." Waru stated, absentmindedly letting his hand run over Kyo's face and neck, over his shoulders and down his arms. Kyo mumbled something, making Waru pay attention to his face again. "Hm?"

Kyo looked at him, "what if I want to repay you now?"

Waru smirked, rising to his feet. "Then join me in a shower." He didn't wait for an answer as he pulled his shirt off, walking away from Kyo, exploiting his back, Kyo's mouth fell open as he rested his eyes on Waru's back where a huge tattoo appeared. ((http://tn3-2.deviantart.com/fs6/300W/i/2005/110/6/2/angel_wings_tattoo_by_cannibol.jpg))

Standing on his still unsteady legs, Kyo slowly made his way down the hall following Waru, his eyes looking around as he went. When he met Waru in the bathroom, the other immediately closed the door behind Kyo. He pinned him to the door, hands at either side of his head and pressed their lips together. Kyo's hands slid up his back and he pulled away from the kiss.

"It looks like you're the angel.." he said with a slight smile. He didn't know if he wanted this or was just too lost to stop himself, but that wasn't much of a concern as he pushed it away, eye's concentrated into the ones right infront of him. Waru grinned at that comment and bent his head down to nibble at Kyo's neck right below his ear.

Kyo let his head fall to the side with a slight groan, hands going back down to slowly push Waru's already undone pants down to the floor and then dropping his own. Pushing Waru away from him, earning quite a questioning look in return, he smirked before turning away and slipping into the curtains of the shower and turning on the water.

Waru grinned to himself as Kyo got in the shower, he went over to the mirror to stare at himself, pushing his boxers to the ground, letting his hand slide over his cock that was still waiting for it's treatment. He pulled one hand through the sprayed mess that was his hair. He slipped into the shower, pushing Kyo up against the cold wall, ravishing down on his neck. "I could rape you right here." He said.

Kyo breathed out as Waru's grip loosened around him. He turned around, facing him. "I doubt it would even count if you did anymore.." he breathed, leaning back against the cold tiles. The warm water ran down them both and Kyo could see how the droplets of water turn at every cut in Waru's body. Though they were the same, Waru seemed to be the more muscular one of the two and Kyo immediately wanted to feel him all over.

Taking an almost unsure step forward, still not used to this, he put his arms around Waru's neck pulling their bodies together and tilted his head down to nip along his neck. He let one arm fall back down, hand going to the peirced nipple of his brother's, pulling and twisting it in circles. His tongue came out to lick from right below the other's collar up to his earlobe, already wet from the running water, and began to nibble and bite his ear. Flicking his tongue out at the shell of Waru's ear, Kyo stopped his ministrations just for a moment to whisper, "What do you want..?" his voice was both teasing and pleading, he didn't care anymore. He was too far gone to care.

Waru gave off a muffled growl at Kyo's teasing voice. Waru bit his ear. "That depends," He moved closer, rubbing his crotch against Kyo who moaned out in a low tone. Kyo looked at Waru questioningly. Moving closer to kiss him, Waru pulled back doing nothing but look at him. Kyo looked puzzled for a while as he once again leaned in to try to kiss him.

Waru still didn't move his face or show any expression. Suddenly Kyo's wrists were pinned to the wall, making Waru control the situation. Kyo once again felt the cold tile against his back "What?" He asked, wondering why Waru wouldn't let him kiss him. Waru leaned in to kiss him, stopping only millimeters away from his lips, letting them brush against Kyo's. Waru's sudden change of behaviour made Kyo confused.

He leaned in to kiss him again, a real kiss this time, he claimed the kiss like it was his to take. The sensations from it quickly ended the struggle and Kyo moaned softly against his lips, giving him the kiss. Oh that sweet kiss... his hunger reminded him of it's presence and he tried to take in more of it.

When Waru lifted his head again he whimpered and tried desperately to hold onto the kiss. Even when he was just out of reach he tried to move his head to get just a bit more of it but the grip on him kept him from reaching it.

Waru let go of one of Kyo's wrists to let his palm rest against his throat. Kyo felt it and looked at Waru, his whimper pleading. Waru breathed out a faint but calm whisper, "No..." Kyo immediatly silenced.

Kyo noticed that Waru had let both of his wrists out of his grip. He watched Waru, slowly moving his hands, almost as if he was asking for permission to lift them. Waru only looked down at them and back to Kyo, shaking his head slowly. Kyo immediatly let his hands fall back. Kyo could feel his cravings to be more than just a kiss right now, but he couldn't take what he needed. Something about Waru's actions made him unsecure...

Kyo longed for those lips as Waru once again leaned in, once again brushing over his lips. "WARU..." Kyo pleaded out, surprising himself. Waru leaned back again quickly, his eyes asking what he pleaded for. Kyo's voice sank to a whisper, feeling as if he did something he shouldn't have. "Please... I just need,," His voice cracked, his eyes still begging him to do something to him.

Waru's hand finally left Kyo's throat, moving down to lay on his hip. He moved in closer, breathing at his lips, feeling the warm water streaming down the two of them. Waru moved both of his hands to entwirl with Kyo's, pressing them back to the wall again, leaning in to kiss him deeply. This time he didn't break the kiss, he let Kyo's tongue move to play with his own, both pulling back for air a moment later.

"What are you doing to me?" Kyo asked, his eyes full of questions.

Waru nuzzled his cheek, "Hm?"

"You're making me feel something..." Kyo tried to explain, but couldn't.

Waru kissed the corner of his lips "I know." his eyes stared hard into Kyo's as he guided one of his hands down to his unattended dick. Kyo couldn't tear his eyes from Waru's as his hand was wrapped around the other's base and he obeyingly began to stroke him, receiving a soft sigh of pleasure.

Waru let go of Kyo's hand leaving him to continue on his own as he reached above, changing the dial on his showerhead to a rough stream, aiming it to hit the topside of Kyo's again erect cock. Kyo's hips immediately bucked against the pressured water hitting him so sensitively, trying to struggle away from it but he was shoved back in place harshly. "Don't.." Waru warned, hand that still held Kyo's tightening. Kyo wimpered shakily and nodded, the sensation of the water hitting and vibrating his dick making him almost want to fall. Then Waru moved his hips to Kyo's hand, "I never said for you to stop though.." he said with a smirk and Kyo felt his legs want to collapse.

With pleading eyes and almost panting breath from everything rushing inside him, he again began to pleasure his brother still unsatisfied by the contact he so wanted. Waru let his head fall back as he moved his hips to Kyo's hand movements, "Faster..Tighter.." he instructed and Kyo obeyed, watching with tortured half lidded eyes as Waru had what he wanted. Every hit the water took was pushing Kyo further, he burned for Waru to touch him. Soon Kyo began to shake from the constant stimulation over his member and he didn't know how long he'd last before he either fell to the bottom of the tub or came.

Waru heard Kyo's laboring breathing and immediately pulled Kyo's hand from him, turning the blonde to face the wall. He gripped a handfull of hair at the back of Kyo's head and forced him to bend over having to hold himself up against the wall. Kyo gasped at the quick change and turned his head to look up at Waru behind him.

Waru grinned down at him. "You ready to beg me..?" he teased. Kyo let his head drop between his supporting arms, unable to answer that. Waru's eyes narrowed and he gripped Kyo's hips, digging his nails into the bundle of nerves underneath his hipbones, making Kyo cry out with a gasp. "I asked you a question, Kyo.." he continued then kicked the inner sides of his ankles to part his legs much further before pressing so that his tip was against Kyo's entrance, "Beg." this time, it was a command. He wanted Kyo to beg for him and only him. He wanted his brother to need him in a way no other brother would.

Kyo gasped as he felt Waru's cock against him, without any preparation. He whimpered, a bit scared of the pain he'd feel, still that pain was all he craved for at the moment. That pain he wanted to beg for but couldn't form the words. Waru added more pressure onto Kyo's entrance, making him toss his head back. "Fuck.." Waru slapped his side. Kyo cried out, "Just fuck me," he paused, feeling Waru's others hand creating long scratchmarks on his back, "Please.." Waru finally pushed himself inside, moaning out loud at the tightness surrounding him.

Kyo cried out from the intense pain Waru was causing him, he thanked god for the warm water slipping down inbetween the two bodies. Waru panted as he was fully inside of Kyo, wanting to go mad. He moved on to massaging Kyo's back with his palms, making Kyo feel more comfortable as he slowly began moving his hips. "Does it hurt?" Waru asked with a soft voice, pulling himself all the way out only to force himself back in.

"Y-..Yes..." Kyo panted, fingers gripping at the tiled wall, "But..ahh... Don't stop?" he pleaded. He wanted Waru to move faster, to pound into him harder. To show what he wanted, since he himself couldn't even form proper sentences. When Waru pulled out he pushed back as hard as he could and began doing that each time until Waru caught on, gripping his hips tightly bringing them into his thrusts that began to speed up.

Kyo nearly screamed his moans as Waru angled his hips to hit right where he needed it with so much force. Wimpering under his breath he continued to rock, wanting so much to take hold of himself but not daring unless Waru gave him the permission.

Waru couldn't keep himself calm anymore as he sped up his thrusts, leaning in on Kyo, one hand around his waist to support himself and the other sneaking under his body to find his cock, wrapping his long fingers around it, beginning to pump him in time with his own thrusts, his mind blurry from the sensations he felt. He bit the skin of Kyo's back closest to his mouth.

Kyo whimpered, but other than that he didn't even seem to notice it as he felt himself being on the verge of orgasm. Suddenly Waru stopped his movements. "Waru, don't stop.." Kyo cried out, trying to look back at his brother.

Waru thought about quitting right there, just pull out and leave him like that. "How badly do you need me?" he asked, wanting him to beg him for release. Waru really pushed his selfdiscipline to the limits, feeling himself being oh so close, still buried inside the warmth of Kyo.

Kyo whimpered out a tiny plead "Badly...I need you so badly.." Waru pulled out as Kyo kept repeating those words before pushing back in, full force, grabbing Kyo's cock again, bringing them both up to their orgasms.

As Waru kept going, about to reach it, Kyo begged and begged for him harder. He was more than glad to comply and thrust into Kyo until Kyo's moans became a loud constant mixed with his own, and right before they both came Waru pulled out, taking hold of himself and jerking untill he came all over Kyo's ass.

Kyo panted, still needing Waru inside of him as he was on the very edge of orgasming when his brother had pulled out. "Ahnn.. Waru... Please.. I need it..." he pleaded, feeling as though he could collapse at any second, his body was shaking. He turned his head to look behind him and there Waru stood just grinning down at him as he couldn't help but wimper from the intense feeling built up inside of him.

"Too bad you didn't cum sooner," Waru teased, letting his hand run down Kyo's shoulder and over his back, still being bent over, his cock weighing heavily inbetween his legs. Waru kneeled next to him, licking his neck. "What do you want me to do?" Waru asked. Kyo's head turned to face him, his eyes pleading and his face deeply blushing. Strands of hair falling down infront of his eyes.

"Anything.. Just touch me," he breathed out. Waru leaned back, patting the floor next to him. Kyo fell down, sitting to face him. "Fucking please.."

Waru crawled in close to him, pulling him to sit inbetween his legs, "Close your eyes." Kyo did as he was told as Waru snuck a hand around his waist, beginning to pump him.

Kyo breathed out a soft moan to the welcomed friction as Waru's other hand found Kyo's. Waru guided it to take a grab of his other hand on Kyo's cock. Kyo immediatly tightened his grip around Waru's hand and sped up, leaning back into Waru's embrace, his head resting in the crook of Waru's neck, taking mear seconds for him to cum all over their hands.

He arched back against Waru as he came, head hanging back against Waru's shoulder which the other turned his head to kiss at the neck exposed. Once Kyo came down from his euphoria, he opened his eyes to look up at Waru, somewhat ashamed but moreso unsure. Waru's hand came up, brushing the wet hair from Kyo's flushed face and Kyo's blushing intensed, eyes shifting to look down.

Waru leaned in to Kyo, nibbling on his lip to get him to pay attention to him again. Kyo looked back up as Waru captured his lips in a sweet kiss, Waru's hands moving over Kyo's stomach and chest. Kyo broke the kiss, his eyes filled with questions. Waru raised an eyebrow at Kyo who immediatly forgot anything he planned on saying.
"Come on," Waru said and Kyo rose on unsteady legs, Waru close behind him holding his balance. He grabbed a white towel, pulling it around himself and pulling back Kyo into his embrace to wrap him in it aswell. They faced the mirror, staring at the couple facing them. Waru rested his head on Kyo's shoulder, a pleased expression over his face, "What are you thinking about?" he asked.

Kyo shook his head, looking down to avoid looking at their identical figures in the mirror. "Nothing.." he felt Waru's hand under his chin turning his head to face him. Waru didn't release from his hand but ran his thumb over Kyo's plushed lips.

"It's not nothing.." he pointed out in a soft voice.

Kyo broke from the hand to look away again then turned all the way around but not moving away from him. "What's happening.." he asked under a whisper, hands rested on Waru's shoulders, eyes staring hard into his, making a mirror of their own. He wanted to know what Waru wanted from him, were they lovers, brothers, both.. Would this happen again.. Had it even happened at all or was it just one of his sick dreams playing him again.. He couldn't think and he hoped Waru could tell him, could make him understand.

"I guess we're getting to know eachother," Waru said softly, knowing that his answer was far from what Kyo wanted.

He looked back at him, "Waru, we just fucked, that's not how people get to know each other..."

Waru pecked his lips, "It's not?" He smirked and walked away, taking the towel messing it around in his hair.

"Waru..." Kyo followed him out to the livingroom where he fell down in his couch, beginning to eat some of the stuff he had put out earlier. The movie was still running, near its end. Kyo moved to lay down with his head in Waru's lap. "Don't leave me like that..." He pleaded.

Waru laughed softly, "I just exited the room." Kyo nodded and closed his eyes as Waru's hands found their way into his hair. Waru pulled a blanket over Kyo's naked body, watching the movie. He looked down at his twin, guilt building up inside of him. "So fragile.." He whispered to himself. "Kyo?" He said louder to catch his attention. Kyo hummed an answer. "Whatever you do, don't fall for me.

Kyo winced at that, knowing full well that he might just already have started. Pushing himself up with one elbow, he looked at Waru with questioning eyes, "What..?"

"Just don't, Kyo." he said, trying to finalize the conversation. Kyo didn't want to end it so quickly though.

"How the fuck can you say 'just don't'?" he tried to ask, a bit rushed. He bit his lip before continueing, softer again, almost wary, "Waru.. We just met.. and you were able to convince me to give in to all of this and let you have me even though we share the same fucking parents... You got what you wanted.. How can you tell me that now?" he was looking down now, staring straight at the hand hold himself up, completely confused. He couldn't even think of his words as they came, all he could do was say them.

"You let me have you?" He watched Kyo, "You begged for it, remember?" Kyo opened his mouth to protest, though Waru was faster. "This has nothing to do with that. This has to do with your feelings. And if you don't want them as fucked up as I fucked you in that shower," he tilted his head towards the bathroom, "then don't fall for me."

Kyo looked puzzled, "Waru, I don't understand.."

Waru could feel those sad eyes watching him, even though he faced the tv. He looked down before looking back up, "Remember when I said that relationships don't like me?" Kyo nodded, Waru continued. "I meant it."

Kyo watched Waru, "Then.. Now what?"

Waru rose to his feet, turning the dvd off, "Spend the night with me," He smiled at Kyo.

Kyo nodded, chewing at his lip, then stood as well to follow Waru who had again disappeared to the hallway. Walking behind him, he only looked up when he was inside the room. He looked around warily, unsure of what was expected of him now.

Waru walked to the window, turning the only lit lamp in the room off, letting the moon cast its glow into the bedroom. He got into his bed, sitting up, leaning against the wall, looking at Kyo. "Come here.." Kyo began walking up to Waru, sitting down on the side of his bed. Waru crawled underneath the covers, watching Kyo's back. He let a finger out to touch him.

Kyo slowly turned around and crawled in bed with him. Watching him with a nervous look, "I'm tired.." He breathed out.

"Don't worry, I'm not going to force you underneath me again tonight." He smirked as Kyo seemed to exhale.

He crawled closer to Waru, pulling his hand over his own shoulders. Waru watched him as he curled up next to him, head resting against his shoulder. Waru began letting his fingers play softly on his tattoos.

The entire night Kyo couldn't sleep, not properly; Everytime he'd fall asleep he'd wake up just a half hour later, soon it started to seem like it was exact each time he looked at the digital clock across the room. After countless times of waking up he groaned, turning his head to Waru who had been sleeping perfectly fine with his arms still around the blonde. Taking Waru's hand, Kyo pulled it off of him, setting it on the other side of him before silently sitting up. He got nervous as he attempted as quietly as he could to leave the room without waking Waru, which was easier than he anticipated.

After using the bathroom, he knelt down to the pile of clothes that were still on the floor there, taking out his phone from the pocket of his jeans and flipping it open. His eye's squinted to the harsh light that blared into them as a little animation came onto the screen saying that he had eighteen missed calls.

Wait, EIGHTEEN?! Kyo quickly checked who they were from and he leaned back against the cold wall, groaning because they were all from Kisaki. He put a hand to his face, clicking the button to exit but as soon as the phone left his missed calls file, another alert popped onto the miniature screen, blinking '7 New Voicemails' and '1 New Text'. He decided on the later, not sure he wanted to hear what had been said. Going to his inbox, he opened the file to read it.

"Where the fuck are you

Whore."

His heartbeat quickened after he read the few words. Standing up, he quickly got his clothes on and shoved the phone back into his pocket. Going into the kitchen, he turned on a small light over the oven and found some notepaper on the counter. He hurriedly took a pen from his pocket and wrote down his number in slightly shaken handwriting. Rushing out, forgetting to turn out the bathroom and kitchen light in his rush, he got his jacket and shoes before leaving the house, making sure to close the door as quietly as he could. He didn't have any time to think as he rushed down the dark streets at almost 5 in the morning to get to the subway.

Finally after about an hour, he got to the apartment he shared with his lover and before opening the door he checked his phone to see that it was now 6, and the sun was just begining to come up behind him. Taking a deep breath, he slowly cracked the door opened, flinching as he heard the hinges give a small squeak. As soon as he had gotten the door opened just enough to slip through, he saw from his side view a figure he knew to be Kisaki in the dark room rush over to him, grabbing him by the collar and dragging him inside, slamming the door shut before delivering a violent backhanded slap to Kyo's face with enough force to make him stumble backward against the door. He knew this was comming, and he knew what would follow. It was always the same, no matter what it was to set his lover off.

Immidiately, Kisaki began screaming at him, yelling how much of a whore he was and didn't deserve anything better. Kyo was ready for every hit and insult inflicted on him as it continued, he couldn't defend himself either; Telling Kisaki he'd finally met his brother, and by the way, fucked his brother wouldn't make things any better. As it went on, Kyo stayed silent, only protests being small grunts and wimpers as Kisaki then threw him to the couch, climbing ontop of him and unbuckling both their pants.

Kyo's eyes shot open and that's when he began to struggle, desperately trying to break out from under Kisaki but the other man held him down, turning him onto his stomach as he yanked Kyo's pants and boxers down to his knees. Kyo kicked but the restraint his bunched up jeans made made it impossible to even move more than just a little.

Kyo turned his head to scream, but another slap connected to his cheek and he was forced to shut up as Kisaki pulled himself out. He spread Kyo and forced himself inside without even the slightest bit of preparation. Kyo screamed in pain and Kisaki slapped him again, yanking him up by the hair, "You fucking little slut.." he hissed against Kyo's ear as he continued to slam into the blonde without any care, able to immediately feel that someone much bigger than he had been inside of -his- Kyo.

WaruxKyo: The Calander Hung Itself: Ch. 1

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Fri, 26 Jan 2007 04:21:35 GMT

Title: The Calander Hung Itself
Author: 304_pinkkiller & mrssleazoid
Chapters: 1/?
Genre: N/A
Rating / warnings: NC-17 / twincest, anal, oral, rape, drugs, obsession, abuse, ect.
Band(s): -----Dir en grey I guess.. and whatever Kisaki is considered. Possibly others later
Pairing(s): WaruxKyo - KisakixKyo
Summary: Kyo meets his twin brother who his parents disowned as a child and who seems to have no limits. And what's this about Kyo's psycho boyfriend? DUNDUNDUN! ~~haha, gay summary.~~
Disclaimer: I own this computer, yes?
Comments: Hope you all like this, woot!

Kyo wandered through the large music store, NOIZ, looking through CDs, as he'd been doing all morning. After he'd finally picked up a whole armful of CDs, he scuttled over to the cash register to buy them, and looked down at the rack of magazines while the person rang him up. His eyes grew huge, seeing naked Kiyouharu on the front cover of FOOL'S MATE this month. He had to fucking get it. Picking it up, he tossed it to the girl behind the counter to buy it as well. Soon, taking all his stuff, he rushed out of the store to find some food, he was fuckin hungry. But as soon as he got past the glass doors, he ran into someone, knocking them both to the ground. He looked up to see a dark haired replica of himself.

The apology he was about to say got stuck in his throat. Apparently the other noticed the similarity of the two as well, since his mouth was stuck in the same way.

The darkhaired man, named Waru, eyed the blonde in front of him. He would've thought he'd just walked into a mirror if the person facing him wasn't a fucking blonde.

Another moment passed before he shook his head and came back to reality. He stood up, reaching his hand out to the other to help him up. The blonde smiled awkwardly. "You okay?" Waru asked to break the silence.

"Y-Yeah.. I guess so.." Kyo mumbled as he was pulled to his feet by the look-alike. They just stood there, staring at eachoter, awkwardly looking eachother up and down. Then Kyo gasped, eyes widening, when finally realization struck him like lightning. "Fuck.." he breathed as the the fingers of his hand cupped over his mouth. He stumbled backward a bit, but his eyes couldn't tear away from the man who was most likely, and he was diffinately sure on it, his fucking brother; His parents had rarely mentioned anything about him, but he just knew it was him, that they were twins at birth. He wondered if the other knew anything about him, but he just couldn't get past the shock, staring at the other.

Waru glared back at the other man, a bit annoyed from him acting so weird. "Fuck what?" He smirked towards the other man. "It's not often I walk in to such a handsome man like you." He reached his hand out, "I'm Waru. We better not have the same name..."

The blonde took his hand with hesitation, "Kyo..." Waru kept a hold of Kyo's hand for a second, before letting go.

"This is a bit strange." He gave of a blushed crooked smile before hiding his mouth behind his black scarf again. "People walking by probably think that we're brothers." He watched Kyo's face turning if possible even more pale. In fear of Kyo just falling over right there on the spot Waru asked "Maybe we should sit down?"

Kyo hurriedly nodded and looked around, spotting a bench not far away. He gestured to it and they walked over, sitting down. "So... Umm.." Kyo didn't know what to say, it didn't seem like Waru knew anythign or that it even crossed his mind as a possibility. Waru sat close to him, slightly too close for his own comfort, but he didn't say anythign as he was feeling anxious enough.

Waru looked at him with a raised Brow, "Whats wrong with you?" he asked.

"Oh um, nothing I guess.. Heh.." Kyo cursed himself mentally for this, why did it have to happen and why did he have to be so nervous? He never even thought he'd meet this man. Sighing, he looked around before looking back at the darkhaired one, still amazed at how identical though they'd been apart for so many years.

"Well you seem like you're about to throw up." Waru stated as he moved his hand to touch the forehead of the other. Kyo quickly pulled back, trying to avoid Waru's hand touching him. Waru laughed. "I'm not going to kill you dammit, I'm just seeing if you have a fever."

Kyo looked at him with big eyes. "Oh..."

Waru removed his hand, "You seem fine."

Kyo looked away. "Yeah, I'm fine. It's not what I'm upset about."

Waru looked questionally at him. "Then what is it?"

Kyo didn't exaclt know how to answer that. 'Oh, btw dude, we're brothers seperated because our parents were douches and didn't want more than one child. So, sup?' Kyo scooted away a bit so he could turn to face him. "Umm... I think we're.. related," Kyo said awkwardly. How else was he supposed to repond?

Waru stared back at him. He'd always been the only child, his parents barely around for him. He had always been alone. "Um..." Waru scratched the back of his head. "Do you wish we were or do you actually have any fact to go with that statement?"

Kyo cleared his throat "I have some facts... A bit blurry but..." Again he silenced, probably wondering how to continue.

Waru shook his head slowly as Kyo went silent again. "For gods sake, take your time." His tone was full of sarcasm. He leaned back, picking up a pack of smokes from his pocket, putting one in his mouth and lightning it. "Want one?" He asked, Kyo blankly staring at him. Waru looked at him. "Well then." He put the pack back in his pocket waiting for Kyo to talk.

Kyo leaned against the back of the bench and sighed, "Yeah sure, I think I need one right now anyway," Waru rolled his eyes, having to get one out again and handed it to him. "So, what the hell is this 'relations' thing?" he asked, getting a bit impatient with what the blonde had said.

Kyo scratched at the back of his head thinking, then lit his cigarette taking a long drag from it. He leaned against his knees and looked up at Waru, "Umm.. Well I used to have a twin" he started, not sure how he was gonna get this through to the other. "And uhh, my parents didn't keep him.. or you" he corrected himself at the end.

Waru had been taking a drag of his smoke when Kyo spoke the words, almost making him choke on it. He coughed as he turned to look at Kyo. "You sure about that? The twin thing, I mean?"

Kyo nodded. "My parents didn't talk about it much though. They mentioned it once, I'm not sure if I was supposed to hear it at all." Kyo looked back up at Waru.

"So... If this is true and you are my brother..." Waru silenced "Why didn't you try to find me?" Waru felt the anger building up inside of him. If this infact was true, maybe all those years of fighting and lonliness at home could've been avoided. He looked away, shooting mad glares at anyone walking too close to them.

"..How could I? I couldn't ask them.. I had no clue where you were, for all I knew you weren't even in Japan.." Kyo said in a slightly quieter voice, examining the ash at the end of his stick glowing. "I wanted to.. but.. after a while I just gave up on the possibility it would ever happen.. I mean look now, I'm 25 and they still haven't told me anything regarding I even had a brother"

He thought and glanced up at Waru, "You are..25 right?" Waru shrugged then nodded, not sayign anything. Kyo nodded absently, it couldn't be denied that it was true now.

Waru clenched his fist around his smokes, hand still buried in his pocket. He knew he couldn't blame anything on Kyo, but still he just felt like he wanted to scream at him. Then again, the ones he should be screaming at should be Kyo's parents. He shook his head. His parents. He wrinkled his nose, trying to seem like non of this was bothering him.

"Why did they keep you and not me?" He asked, doing his best to make Kyo feel more awkward. Somehow he found the shyness of Kyo appealing. Kyo opened his mouth, before closing it again. "no..." Waru flashed his smirk at him. "You're the blonde, the angel, aren't you?" Waru moved closer to Kyo, fingering on one of the blonde strands of Kyo's bangs. Kyo's eyes widened a bit; Waru was so close, touching him. He held his breath until Waru finally let go, "Their baby.." he finished, blowing out more smoke.

Kyo could finally breathe again and he looked down. He didn't know what to say; It was as if the other had closed off all his thoughts from escaping each time they even developed.

But then he noticed, he hadn't even asked the others name. "Umm..So.. What's your name then?" he asked, hating he was so oddly nervous.

"Waru" he flashed a grin at the blonde, finding it cute that he actually blushed when he answered. Kyo swore he was gaining a headache, alot was happening at once he guessed that being the reason for his odd behavior. "I'm still Waru, Yes." He continued in a low voice.

Kyo looked at him. "Still?"

Waru smirked, "yes, I told you before."

"Oh..." Kyo blushed lightly.

"You're cute when you blush." Waru continued, pushing his limits with pleasure.

"Well I guess you are too, then?" Kyo answered with a rather annoyed tone in his voice.

Waru shrugged. "I never blush."

"Pft." Kyo answered, looking away.

Waru continued "Well, there's really only one time anyone can catch me blushing." He winked at Kyo who didn't seem to get the hint at first."So brother, what now?" Waru asked.

Waru was making him extemely uncomfortable, but he didn't exactly dislike it. Shrugging, he tossed his finished cigarette. "Want to go somewhere..? Catch up or something I guess?" he suggested, taking another cigarette from his own pocket to light up. Before his lighter even came in contact with the tip, Waru had beat him to it with his own and flicked the flame out. Kyo blushed and pulled back a little, but then shook it off, leaning to the flame and taking the starting hit of his cigarette, keeping his eyes down.

Waru eyed him curiously as Kyo looked down. "Well then, I take it you weren't heading anywhere else?" He asked. Kyo shook his head.

"Just out spending money." Kyo nodded his head in direction to his bag of CD's.

Waru picked them up and eyed through them. "You've got good taste, I must say." He paused and picked up the magazine. "My oh my!"

Kyo's eyes grew big as he noticed the naked Kiyoharu on the cover. "I... Um..." He tried to defend himself, "I just like his music."

Waru laughed, "So you buy a nudemag with him on the cover, do you think it'll be much about his music in this one?" He smirked towards Kyo, who now blushed deeply. Waru couldn't help but to love the fact that Kyo had bought a magazine with a naked man on the cover instead of a naked woman. Waru let him off the hook by putting the mag back in his bag. "Come on, let's go. ...fag." Waru gave off a nasty giggle.

Kyo nodded, trying to ignore what had just happened. "So umm.." he started as they both stood at the same time, "What would you like to do or go? It doesn't really matter to me so it's up to you.." he said, pulling his bag over his shoulder. A piece of hair fell into his face and he cross-eyed glared at it before trying to pull it to the appropriate side again; Fuck. Kyo was getting annnoyed with it since it had been doing it all morning and he glared at the offending strand, almost tempted to cut it off right then or something else drastic.

Waru carefully watched Kyo fight with the strand of hair, wanting to feel Kyo's hair inbetween his fingers again. He shoved his hands deep into his pockets. "We could always go to my place, it's not that far...and it would be quiet." Waru tilted his head towards a group of annoying schoolgirls walking by, those damn highpitched voices.

"Sure," Kyo said, shrugging again.

"No angel after all, are you?" Waru said with a playful voice.

Kyo looked at him, "What?" Waru snickered.

"Following a guy home right after meeting them is not an angelic thing to do, you know?" Waru playfully pushed at Kyo with his shoulder.

"Oh.. heh" Kyo laughed dryly, dipping his head down so that his annoying hair would at least serve the purpose of hiding his cheeks from view, quite embarassed by the comments that were constantly being thrown at him.

"Well then, lets get going before it's past our bedtimes, ne?" Waru said, beginign to lead the way to his place.

It really wasn't far away at all as Kyo found out; He lived all the way across the city, though it was odd that they would have never seen eachother before.

"So, this is where I live." Waru unlocked the door and walked in, Kyo slowly following him inside, looking around. Waru kicked his shoes off, his jacket and scarf quickly following.

Kyo cleared his throat, "So, you live alone?" Waru had already walked into the kitchen to dig around for something to eat.

"Yep." He eyed Kyo curiously as he began taking his jacket of.

He returned his attention to the fridge, "Jackpot! I have popsicles." He took one out, ripping the paper off of it, placing it in his mouth. "Wrant wrone?" He managed to say with the icecream in his mouth.

Kyo slowly shook his head, "I'm fine..." Waru shrugged at him and began making tea as Kyo went to sit down on Waru's couch, eyeing the posters and paintings on the wall with a curious expression on his face.

"Got some cool stuff here.." Kyo mused, eyes scanning over everything in the room, although it was quite small it was still very nice. After a few seconds, he got up and decided to join Waru in the kitchen.

"You like tea, right?" Waru asked when he heard Kyo walk in. Kyo nodded even though Waru wasn't even looking at him, and leaned back against an opposite counter to watch him tend to the tea.

Waru turned his head to Kyo, reaching behind the pot to turn up the heater. "You don't talk much, do you?"

The blonde shifted his eyes and then focused on Waru. "Well.. I guess.." Really he was just nervous, he didn't know what to say anymore though other times his friends would be near having to tape his mouth shut.

Waru silently nodded and turned to fully face Kyo, leaning against the other counter. He figured he knew Kyo's reasoning without him needing to explain himself.

They stood like that for a while, staring at eachother, quietly comparing everything on the two. Waru once again broke the silence. "Fuck, you look just like me." Waru lifted his shirt, putting his waist on display, he pushed his belt down a bit past his hipbones to show a birthmark, almost shaped like a star. "You have one of those?" He asked. Kyo shook his head.

"Nope, I only got tattoos with funny shapes, I guess." A faint smile painted his lips.

Waru let the hold of his clothes go as he tilted his head. "Really? Let me see. I got some tattoos myself. Though they are not on very public areas."

Kyo lifted an eyebrow as he opened the zipper to his sweater revealing his fullsleeves. "They're not finished yet though."

Waru walked closer, looking at them curiously. "They're hot." He moved back to pour them both some tea.

Kyo showed him the ones on his hands and pulled his hair back so that the other could see the ones on his neck. Waru stared at the skull and brought a finger up to touch it and Kyo felt a jolt go through him. Quickly situating his clothes and hair back to normal, leaning back against the counter and clearing his throat, he looked at Waru with a half smile.

He was about to ask about his tatoos, but lost the thought when he recalled what had been said about them, so instead he stared at his spikey black hair. "I like it.." he commented with a toothy grin. "My hair was like that once.. I guess we both have alot of the same tastes too."

"I guess we do. I've never been blonde though, never thought I'd look good in it." He paused, "But now that I'm watching you I can't help but to regret that I didn't try." Waru smirked, once again putting his hand in Kyo's hair, pulling it away slowly to let his hair fall back down inbetween his fingers. He could feel Kyo holding his breath as the air got thicker.

Waru turned back to fetch the cups as he moved to sit down on his sofa. Kyo sat down next to him and asked, "So how many tattoos have you got?"

Waru placed his cup at the table looking back at him. "Want to count?" He smirked, "Theyr'e a bit hidden as I said. I don't want anyone I don't like to drool over them." He paused, leaning down sloppily on his couch. "I'm more into piercings, anyway." He fingered on one of the rings currently in his lip.

"Ah.. I have quite a few on my ear now, but I used to have a few lip peircings too. Got rid of them though, didn't feel like always changing them, I guess" he said, half avoiding answering Waru's offer to see the tattoos he spoke of. He sat over on the opposite side of the couch, still feeling awkward, though a bit more comfortable with his brother.

It was a different kind of feeling that made him want to stay away, but he didn't exactly know; It wasn't like Waru smelled bad or was weird, well, not too weird at least. The multiple inuendos Waru threw at him in just the short time ago that they met came back to Kyo's mind and he shifted a bit, shoving his hands deep into the pockets of his jacket, tugging it around him a bit.

Waru set down his cup, and to much of Kyo's dismay, leaned over reaching to cup his ear. Kyo flinched but didn't move beyond that, his eye's turning to watch what he was doing though they couldn't exactly go that far back.

"Wow.. I really like them," he complimented, running his finger over the shell of Kyo's ear with a soft touch, hand migrating to his hair again before sitting back to the other side and picking up his tea. "I really love your hair too, It's so soft.. You are too.." he added the last words with a smirk before taking another sip of his tea as if it were nothing more than a mear everyday compliment.

Kyo felt his face pale and his cheeks redden; he wondered if he could become pale enough to dissapear right from Waru's sight, and he wished it were possible even more now, finding his brother, his twin, extremely seductive in his own, unkyolike way.

Waru couldn't help but to feel the need to touch his brother's skin, and once he'd done it, hell, he just wanted more. He figured Kyo already seemed to be scared enough, for the moment atleast. Waru couldn't help but to let his thoughts wander away though, he could see more of that pale skin underneath his fingers. More of that soft voice breathing out his name. More of...

"Waru?"

Waru snapped back from his thoughts, shooting glares at Kyo for interrupting his fantasies, his eyes softened a bit from seeing who exactly has spoken his name. "What?"

"Did you hear what I said?" Kyo looked at him.

"No." Waru answered plain. "But I was thinking of you, does that counts as almost listening?"

Kyo stared, unable to manage a reply as his mind completely shut off; The look in Waru's eyes was so deep and filled with... He didn't want to think about it, it was so embarassing just to think it was a posibility.

Worst was, he could tell Waru was gay and so was he. How could these coincidinces lead to all these thoughts about his own blood.. It didn't make much sense to Kyo, and it kind of scared him.

"Umm.. I guess... But um, I asked what you wanted to do but you're zoning out, so I guess you're tired.." he said, embarassed and trying to justify to himself why Waru went into such a state a moment ago. "Do you want me to go or..?" he was confused; he didn't want to leave, but he was nervous as hell to stay.

"No, I don't want you to go." Waru answered, "I want you to stay with me all evening." He took a sip of his tea, almost emptying the cup. "All night too. I want to know how your life has been...and stuff. I have a hard time sleeping anyway."

Kyo opened his mouth, clenching his hand around his cup. "Oh."

Waru continued, "So... You in love with someone?"

"What has that got to do with my life being good or not?"

Waru smiled, "Quite alot actually." Kyo looked away, not wanting to answer that. "So I guess that's a no then." Waru silenced and watched his blonde twin stare out into space, "Come on, tell me your lifestory." Waru leaned forward, leaning onto his elbow casually at the same time as he fingered on his own black hair.

Kyo tried to smile but couldnt, what did he have to say really? Leaning back into the corner of the couch, he stared at his cup trying to avoid Waru's eyes. "Well.. I guess my life's pretty normal, ya know..." He thumbed around the rim quietly before continueing, eyes comming up to meet Waru's who were staring straight at him briefly, before looking down again.

"My-...Our parents kinda gave up on me, I mean, we're still on good terms but.. Heh, I never exactly did what pleased them.." He motioned toward his bag "And things like that being found...weren't exactly to their liking either..." He had a bit of a blush talking about personal stuff with some guy he'd just met, brother or not.

But he was his brother really, so he didn't feel the need to hold it back; actually, there was just something about Waru that made him feel easier. The blonde was also starting to feel a bit more relaxed, he figured it was since he'd be staying anyway he should try to loosen up at least a little bit.. but there was still something bothering him.

Waru watched as Kyo's shoulders finally seemed to relax and drop a bit. "So I take it you're into guys?" Waru asked, fingering on one of the silverrings on his fingers.

Kyo nodded slowly. "How about you?" He asked.

Waru sighed, "Boys, girls, animals, I don't care what I fuck as long as it feels good." Kyo's eyes grew wide, Waru laughed, "Please don't take the animal part seriously," Kyo seemed to relax a bit. "Mostly guys though. Girls are too demanding, in a way. If I take one home one night she expects me to call her, and when I don't I get slapped."

Kyo laughed nervously at Waru talking so openmindly about these kind of things. "So, you're not a fan of relationships?" He asked.

Waru shook his head. "I think it's more the fact that relationships don't like me." Waru looked down on his hands before looking back up, "By the way, where are our parents now? Anywhere close?"

Kyo looked at him. "You're planning on finding them?"

Waru shook his head, "No. Just to send a professional killer after 'em." Kyo choked on his tea as Waru laughed. "Stop taking me seriously, dammit," he paused, "I'd just like to take a look at them... Nothing else."

"Umm.. They're in Kyoto.. Where we're from," Kyo answered, biting at the inside of his bottom lip. He wondered how they'd react if Waru showed up right infront of them with him. Scratching at the back of his neck, he sighed, "Ya know... Maybe sometime soon I should take you to meet them" the blonde suggested.

Waru looked at his rings, "I guess that'd be fine then, see how they take to their dear son." He was still kind of bitter toward the fact that they'd sent him away, but he couldn't snap at Kyo for that; it was them who did it anyways.

Kyo nodded, glancing out the window. It was only just begining to get dark, they'd only met up in the middle of the afternoon. Looking back at Waru he smiled, "Hey, you hungry?" he asked, "I kinda am.."

Waru decided to not think about his parents right now, and just try to get to know Kyo some more. "Yeah, I am. You wanna go outside to have something? I really don't have much." He gave of a toothy grin as Kyo nodded.

"Sounds good to me."

Waru rose, "Well then, my treat." He let his hand out and Kyo took it.

Waru didn't step back as Kyo got to his feet so they ended up with their faces really close. Waru watched Kyo closely as Kyo's lips opened to let out a small gasp. Waru eyed those lips as he licked his own. His eyes went back to look into Kyo's eyes, they looked frightened, yet curious in a way. Quickly, he turned around to walk out the hall, putting his jacket and shoes back on.

They exited the building as Waru took the lead to his favorite place, Mount Fuji, where they sat down in the dark resturant, looking through their menues.

The blonde looked around the small resuraunt after the waiter left, "I've never been here before," he said before poking down at the menu. "I'm gonna get that," he decided, looking over at Waru who had sat beside him in the booth they were in, so he was against the wall.

Waru eyed Kyo's choice, "Yeah, I think I'll have the same." Waru put a finger in the air and in no time the waiter was there to serve them. Waru ordered both of their meals as he turned to his side to face Kyo, who happened to sit rather close to him. He eyed the neck of Kyo again as he noticed the other tattoo. "Damned," He whispered as Kyo looked back at him, he looked puzzled for a while, probably trying to figure out what he meant by that, before he understood it was the tattoo Waru had laid his eyes on. Waru casually fingered on it, "This one's new, isn't it?" He pulled his finger along the ink seeping out of the piece of art, moving in closer. Kyo could feel Waru's warm breath on his neck, causing goosebumps to appear on his skin. "I can almost taste the ink."

Kyo nodded nervously, "Um.. yeah, it was made five days ago."

Waru moved away somewhat, "It must be painful on the neck," Waru said in a low voice.

Kyo laughed blandly. "Pain... is a point of view," he said, bringing his own hand to touch the art. The feel of the other's fingers was still heavy on his skin and he felt dirty for wanting to feel, to taste more of it. They'd only known eachother as brothers for a few hours and already he wanted to beg his sibling to touch him again; really, he himself couldn't decide what made it worse. Maybe it was a build of of curiousity and longing for his brother he'd never known. He hoped that was it, and this would just pass smoothly.

Waru nodded to Kyo's statement, not saying anything more about it. The attraction he felt towards his brother couldn't be denied as anything other than lust, a bloodbound desire. He smirked at pretty much knowing what was going on underneath those clothes if they were as similar as they were otherwise. But still, his curiousity about the other made him think red.

Or maybe more black, black satin. Waru smirked. He leaned onto his elbows, studying Kyo's face and neck, that pale skin of his. He leaned back, watching as the waiter brought in their food. He watched Kyo brighten up as the food was being placed in front of him, and he snickered to himself as he picked up his chopsticks.

Kyo broke his chopsticks with a happy grin, he was fuckin hungry, yup. They ate their meal in relative silence, mainly because Kyo couldn't exactly think under the constant gaze of Waru. Kyo finished his quickly and the waiter came back to give them their bill, but before he could, Waru stopped him.

The blonde stared at him questioningly as Waru ordered them some dessert, his brother turned to him with a slight grin. "What? Did you not want any?" he asked in a tone Kyo couldn't quite pinpoint.

He shook his head, "No.. No it's fine. You just really don't have to pay for this ya know?" Kyo justified, again scratching at the back of his neck as a nervous act.

"Kyo, I want to. Money's not a problem for me, you see." Kyo nodded to this statement and the following discussion about the russian on Kyo's fingers was interrupted as their dessert came. Waru's eyes shined, seeing what was placed in front of him.

Kyo laughed, "You like icecream, don't you?"

Waru looked at him, slowly sucking on his spoon, making orgasmic loud noises to the taste, mainly to embarrass Kyo. Kyo's cheeks turned red as he shook his head at Waru's act. "Shut up." Kyo picked up his spoon, trying his own icecream with the hot fruitsauce on top, burning his tongue on it. "FUCK!" He spat the icecream back out. "It buuurns" He whined as he looked to see Waru trying to hide the huge laughter wanting to come out.

"Poor baby," he leaned in closer, watching the icecream around Kyo's mouth. Suddenly, he grabbed Kyo's neck with his right hand as he pushed Kyo's mouth to his own, licking the icecream away, listening to the gasp exiting Kyo's mouth. Slowly he pulled away, blowing cold air on his lips. Waru looked at him with an intense stare. "I love icecream..." He finally let him go, returning to his own dessert with a slight smirk on his face.

When Kyo finally found his ability to breathe again, he thought he'd pass out; his heart was beating so fast, he was sure even Waru could feel it against him. "I..I think I need to use the restroom..." he said, a hinted request for Waru to let him out of the booth comming through his words. His body was shaking with what he wanted being the same as what he was afraid of.

"Fine," Waru moved his legs to let Kyo out. He watched the blonde stumble into the men's restroom. He leaned back, absentmindly fingering on his rings while he thought about the whole day. The fact that he had a twin seemed so far away. It's more like he met someone he just wanted to have to himself, and not let anyone else rest so much as a finger on him.

He felt how tired he begun to get, but he still didn't want the day to end. He figured he'd ask Kyo home to see a movie with him. After all, the blonde didn't seem to be wanting to run home; yet he wouldn't let him, anyway. His eyes wandered back to the men's room. All he could think about was to push Kyo up against the wall and have him all to himself right on the spot. "Not yet Waru... Not yet." He said to himself...

In the bathroom, Kyo leaned against the counter staring into the mirror at himself. His cheeks were red as ever and he could feel the heat rising from himself. Groaning, he rested his head forward against the reflective glass; he was slightly hard, and that definately wasn't good.

Standing back up, he turned on the water and leaned to the sink, splashing the cold water to his face and pushing his hair back with a sigh. Whoever said cold water worked was a liar, but it was good enough instinct to just douse yourself for being so easily turned on he guessed.

Glad that he had large pants on, he shoved his hands into his pockets hoping that it would go away with time and walked out of the restroom finding their booth again, but instead sitting on the other side of the table. He crookedly smiled at Waru, "Ready to go?"

Waru looked at him and raised an eyebrow with a smirk that made Kyo almsot blush again before answering him, "Sure, how about we pick up some movies before we head back to my place...That is, you are staying, right?"

Kyo took a moment to think before hesitantly nodding, "Yeah.. I'd like that," he said and they both got up. It was a bit of an awkward answer, Waru felt, but he didn't mention anything. Instead he just gave the other a smile as they headed out to a movie store.

Give My Heart For You

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Jul 2006 13:39:34 GMT

Band: Dir en grey
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main
Previous Chapters:
1
2
3

A/N: weee.. after I finish the 5th chapter, which is in ~~slow~~progress, I'll probably start posting this on some communitiez.. hmm.. <3

Disclaimer- I dun own Diru, yo 0.0 but what I do own is this compu... BWAHAHA
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Chapter 4 - ZOMBOID

It wasn’t too long before they left and were driving though the city. Kaoru left it to Kyo to decide where they would go, so he had chosen a small traditional restaurant that they frequented during breaks on practice days, since it was just down the street.

After being greeted and seated, they placed their usual order. The young woman smiled and nodded along, jotted down the requests, then headed off once they were finished. The place was very simple with rice paper dividers, low tables, and waitresses wearing plain but decorative kimono. Shinya had always been slightly wary of the place when they came, the girls a bit too flirty with the tall redhead for his liking.

The two had actually been together since their early days but Shinya would never admit to being the jealous type. Kyo had actually been the one to get them together in the first place. Back in La: Sadies when Die had joined Shinya and Kyo, Die had immediately developed a crush on the effeminate one. The thing is, Die had believed Shinya to be female because of the way he naturally looked and acted. The redhead had never been involved with a man, though he was far from closed minded to it, and things became quite awkward after that. So Kyo had decided to take it upon himself to get things settled between them, and they've been together since.

Kaoru raised an eyebrow and watched silently as Kyo occupied himself by playing with his chopsticks, walking them over the table and whatever may lay on top. "Umm..Kyo? What the hell are you doing?"

Kyo's eyes flicked up to the ones across from him, stopping all motion and remaining completely still. The only response given was a slight questioning grunt.

Kaoru stared at him for a moment, he looked kind of evil.. but in a cluelessly retarded way. "...You're weird, you know that?" a smile broke to his face as the blonde grinned and nodded enthusiastically. Kaoru was about to make another comment but was suddenly stopped by a steaming bowl of misou soup.

Kaoru couldn’t help but gawk at how Kyo just rammed right through any food he could find on his side of the table. Of course he really hadn't had a decent meal in almost a week, between the concerts and hospital stay. But it was still a slightly unsettling sight nonetheless. "So, what do ya say when we're finished here, we go to your place and.." he let the sentence hang, raising an eyebrow in a suggestive manner. "..go through your stuff?" ending his sentence with a flick of his tongue that never seemed to keep where it belonged. Kyo stopped mid munch to stare at the guitarist, and as he dropped one chopstick, he threw the other at the man's face. "Fine. I'm done anyway." He said, stretching backwards. Kaoru nodded and waved the waitress over so he could pay.

Once they left the restaurant, they were back in the car and on their way to Kyo's house. Kyo was in quite an odd mood and was singing along to anything that came across the radio, even, much to Kaoru's distaste, Morning Musume. "Though you are a vocalist, it worries me that you know most of these songs." Kaoru commented as he turned the corner to Kyo's street, a commercial ranting away.

Kyo stared, as if thinking but only for a second then blurted out as if one word "Shinya's fault."

Kaoru sighed and shook his head in slight amusement as they pulled up into the driveway. Right when the car settled down, Kyo hopped out to unlock the door, and disappeared inside. Kaoru ignored it and after turning everything off, he followed.

Even after all the times of being inside the small house, he still imagined it to be a complete mess. Kyo just seemed the type to be too busy sleeping to actually clean, but it was almost spotless, he was just too busy sleeping to make said mess in the first place. It somehow fit him though. He found Kyo in his room, feeding and playfully taunting his rats as they scurried like bullets through the cage. Kyo patted their heads with his finger before standing and turning to the purple haired guitarist.

Kaoru smiled at him and nodded to the room they were currently in. "We really should get started.." he said, walking more into the middle of the room and made a gesture as if asking if Kyo minded him touching his stuff. When Kyo shook his head, Kaoru went out to get boxes from his car.

After more than 2 hours they were almost finished, with only the living room left, which was good because Kaoru's car was nearing internal combustion. Kyo slowed though when he came to a shelf of photos. Scattered across the shelf were various sized frames of his band and close friends. His mind went through the memories of each captured moment as they were placed carefully into a small box. But as he came to one picture of his family, the only one he had of his own, he stopped.

Kaoru was at the other side of the room taping his last box when he heard the slow cracking of glass. Turning, he saw Kyo wasn’t really moving much and walked over to him. "Kyo, you okay?" he asked, placing a hand on his shoulder. Kyo didn't say anything but Kaoru could feel the tension. He knelt down next to the blonde and as he did, he saw the frame Kyo was holding, his fingers clenched the so tight that the glass was cracked in spiderwebs. As small drops of blood began to fall, so did a few tears.

Yanking the frame away, and thanking all gods he didn’t cause more damage in his haste, Kaoru pushed the box away and got down onto his knees in front of Kyo. "Kyo?!" He called in a slightly raised voice. Kyo looked at him, but said nothing, a few wet trails still there.

Kaoru looked down at the slightly larger hands, holding them carefully palm up, examining the wounded fingertips. Looking back to Kyo, he stood. "Let's get you fixed up, okay?" At first Kyo didn’t react but when he could tell Kaoru had already gone to the kitchen, he stood and soon joined.

In the kitchen Kaoru had already pulled some supplies from the case they had left inside just incase. Kaoru looked at Kyo, motioning him over. The blonde man walked over slowly, his eyes set on the various items placed on the counter. Kaoru remained silent as he carefully took the other's hands, moving them to hover over the sink. Kyo barely reacted at all as his friend disinfected and dressed his fingers. He just stood quietly, watching.

When finished with putting everything back into the case, Kaoru looked at Kyo who still hadn’t moved. He watched him closely, the man in front of him looked so dead already, in another way though. Without breaking the calm silence, he lifted a hand softly to the other's cheek. He wanted so much to help Kyo in any way possible, and he wanted it to be known. Kyo leaned slightly to the hand but nothing more, his eyes cast downward as if in a trance of thought.

Kaoru watched him quietly for a moment before leaning in, placing a light kiss on the vocalists lips. Kyo didn’t do anything, didn’t even flinch, he just continued to stare blankly down. Kaoru pulled away slightly and scanned over his face before kissing him again, only deeper. This time Kyo responded, his eyes dropped shut and he pressed against the kiss, lips parting slightly. Kaoru was surprised at the cooperation but didn’t want it to end. His tongue snaked its way past those lips, messaging softly against Kyo's.

Kyo's hands came up to grip Kaoru's belt loops, and ignoring the slight sting he pulled the taller one tightly against him as he suckled at the invading tongue. He boldly grinded their crotches together, his mind lost with what was going on. Kaoru gasped slightly at the sudden move but gladly returned it, pressing Kyo against the counter with his hips. The slightly taller man leaned Kyo back until he was bracing himself on the tiling with his elbows, fingers still tightly hooked in the straps.

Kaoru's lips lefts Kyo's slightly swollen ones to kiss a light trail to his neck, nipping at the skin along it. He was slightly wary to how accepting Kyo was being, but shrugged it off not wanting to ruin the moment. Kyo let go of him and pulled himself up to sit on the edge of the counter, legs parting to be at either side of the other man. Kaoru's hands came up to rest at Kyo's thighs when Kyo's came up to wrap over his shoulders. His fingers tracing small designs along the inside and up near his slightly bulged crotch.

Kyo whimpered when as felt Kaoru's nails drag over the front of his jeans, hips pressing to the feeling in want. The purple haired man grinned against Kyo's neck as he bit down, the spot being sensitive causing Kyo to moan loudly. Kaoru's fingers worked to undo Kyo's pants opening them and pulling him free, one hand stroking over the head with his palm. Kyo leaned back against the wall behind him, lips parted though nothing but silent pants escaped.

Kaoru watched him for a moment, slowly pumping while watching his lust filled reactions. Smiling slightly, he leaned down and wrapped his lips over the tip, gently teasing it with his tongue. When his hands had succeeded in pulling the pants down further to mid thigh he brought one back up to cradle Kyo's balls as his mouth took in the entire length, his other hand going to Kyo's waist holding him down. He would sometimes pull away and blow across it and give long licks along the shaft, like it was his own little Kyocicle, and he loved the flavor. The hand at his sack messaging gently, coaxing him further.

Kyo was too lost to think at all anymore, not that he could before. He let out long low moans as Kaoru worked, giving him so much pleasure. He had actually never been with a man before, but at the moment he couldn't really give a damn, it felt too good to stop. With all the women he had shared beds with, he had never had this kind of feeling run through him. He didn't know how to place it but it couldn’t have just been the feel of Kaoru's tongue on him. No. Something different. He didn’t want to think about stuff like that though, not right now. So after a while of moans and unsuccessful thrusts he let his head fall back and came deep into the older man's throat.

Kaoru had to hold the blonde down with both hands as he began to reach his orgasm, his thrusts becoming more insistent. But when he finally came, let go allowing him to thrust himself all the way in, sending the thick liquid down his throat. Kaoru had almost gagged from the force but was able to settle himself and pulled off, swallowing what would be left on his tongue. He kissed the head and looked up at Kyo who was still recovering from the experience. He actually thought that this would have been Kyo's first time with a guy, but it didn’t seem like it, maybe the other man just never felt right to mentioned it.

"Kyo.." he whispered as he leaned forward to place another kiss on the mans lips. Kyo looked up at him with glazed eyes and sat up shakily to kiss him deeply, arms going around his neck pulling him closer. Kaoru was again surprised but leaned into it, kissing him back passionately as he undid his own zipper and pulled himself out. Kyo didn’t hesitate one bit and just leans back again, pulling Kaoru to lean over him with the kiss. Kaoru tugged Kyo's pants down lower to bunch around his ankles and as he did he pulled from the kiss, leaning against Kyo's ear. "Aishiteru.. Kyo.."

'Aishiteru..?' Kyo's mind was trying to process this word, his mind was still hazed and it wasn't one he was accustomed to. He tried hard to keep on track with his thoughts as he kissed at Kaoru's neck. Kaoru nuzzled into Kyo's shoulder as he messaged a finger around the entrance. 'he.. loves me..?' Kyo still didn’t quite grasp the concept, but was brought from his thoughts when he felt something enter him. Suddenly he shot up, causing the finger to slip out and he looked at Kaoru with wide eyes.

Kaoru stared up at him, confused. "Kyo..? Did I hurt you? I'm sorry." Kaoru leaned up to try kissing him in apology but was pushed away with enough force to knock him against the opposite counter. Immediately he knew he had done something wrong, but he couldn't react, it was suddenly going too fast.

Kyo didn’t move after he had pushed him away, he just stared, panting. Looking down he saw himself, he quickly jumped down and rushed in pulling his pants up and as he fastened them he whispered something repeatedly. "I..I'm not a fag.. I'm no faggot...FUCK!" Kyo looked around as if lost and then at Kaoru, who looked completely crushed holding himself up against the counter. "I'm not.. a faggot..." with tears already forming in the corners of his eyes, Kyo darted out of the room.

Kaoru too shocked to move, jumped when Kyo had ran. He quickly pushed himself back into his pants, ignoring the extreme discomfort and ran after him but was too late when the front door was slammed right before he could get to it. Out of frustration he punched it. He noticed a window right beside him and quickly parted two blinds and looked out to make sure Kyo hadn't left completely, and was relieved to see Kyo had gone straight into the car. Luckily he still had his keys with him so Kyo couldn’t really go anywhere. But now what would he do? Kyo probably hated him.

Was he going to fast? Had he hurt him somehow? He was sure that Kyo was enjoying it, he couldn’t help himself. Looking down he sighed in defeat, and taking one last glance at Kyo through the glass, he turned around and headed into the bathroom, figuring it would be worse on many levels to get into the car with a full hard-on.

Give My Heart For You

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Jul 2006 13:25:47 GMT

Band: Dir en grey
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main

Disclaimer- I dun own Diru, yo 0.0 but what I do own is this compu... BWAHAHA
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Chapter 3 - Wake

That morning Kaoru woke up to something warm from behind him. Looking back, he noticed Kyo curled up tightly against him. He must have come in his sleep because he didn’t even try stealing the blankets. The older man sighed as he turned over and sat up slightly, pulling the covers over Kyo. He looked down at the smaller one's face, the moon shining down giving it a blue hue. Kyo looked as if nothing was wrong at all; it was hard to think that their little Kyo-chan’s time might be limited.
Looking up, he groaned as his eyes met the clock. He hadn’t gotten barely any sleep the past few days and it was already 4am. Luckily, they had decided to skip the morning’s practice and get together later instead. Kaoru took one last look at Kyo before turning around and settling back to sleep.

~+~Early afternoon~+~

Kyo rubbed his eyes of sleep, stretching backwards and yawning. Looking around he noticed he wasn’t in his room anymore. He sat up and stretched again before standing and walking out to the living room. When he entered, he noticed Kaoru laying on the couch staring at the TV.
Kaoru smiled up at him. “It’s already 2:30. Have a nice rest, Sleeping Beauty?” Kyo just glared back down at him.
"And what’s that supposed to mean?!” Kyo snapped back as he plopped down. He stared at the TV like a zombie. Kaoru sighed, knowing the blonde wasn’t in the best of moods. So, he brought his attention back to the television.
A small silence passed until a commercial cut through. "Want something to drink?"
"So what if I do?" Kyo sneered turning his head to the other male beside him.
“Well, being the courteous leader that I am, I will walk into the kitchen, retrieving us both our liquid of choice. Then, after that I will proceed to walk back, sitting down whilst handing you your particular container.” Kyo’s attitude fell from his face, being replaced by a blank stare. Sometimes he wondered exactly what kind of drugs Kaoru was obviously on.
Kaoru mentally smiled, happy to at least have lightened Kyo up a little. The leader’s attention was soon glued back to the TV as soon as a Gundam rerun flashed onto the screen, when he felt a shift in the cushions beside him. He didn't pay it any mind though, until he felt a head placed into his lap. Raising an eyebrow, he looked down at Kyo's head. Kyo was half asleep. Kaoru smiled, noting how childlike the small demon looked while sleeping.
Brushing his fingers through Kyo's frail and unbrushed hair that resembled a giant yellow kooshball, he wondered how something so horrible could be happening to someone so perfect. He had become so attached to all of them over the many long years and losing anyone would break him.
He didn't notice the object of his worry staring up at him until a hand reached up, brushing along his cheek, bringing him from his thoughts suddenly. The man below him remained silent as he brought his hand back down slowly. The purple head's heart had jumped at the slight contact, but the feeling left with the hand as soon as it had come, and he noticed a small wetness spilled over one long digit. Realizing that he had most likely been crying, he quickly rubbed his eyes and sniffed, being slightly embarrassed. Before Kyo had a chance to say or do anything more, not that he was likely to, he didn't look like he was fully awake yet, Kaoru scooted up from his slouched position with a sudden huge smile that anyone but an incoherent Kyo would notice to be forced.
"Ne," he yawned through a stretch. "Let's go out, we can't stay here forever. Ah, I know! You're hungry, right?" Kyo nodded slightly, curling into a somewhat more comfortable position. "Hmm.. What do you say we go get something to eat?"
The only response he got was was a tired shrug and a dozing Kyo nuzzling into his lap, too out of it to know exactly where he was rubbing against. Kaoru let out a breathy sigh, the friction not really what he needed at the moment. His eyes rolled back in exasperation before pushing Kyo up gently off his lap into a sitting position. Kyo groaned.
"What~?" he whined, stretching backwards against the back of the couch.
"We're gonna go get some food, now go get dressed," Kaoru said, straight to the point. Kyo pouted and slumped into himself. The older man sighed. "Kyo.. please just get dressed," Kaoru pleaded softly. Kyo groaned and clumsily pushed himself up off the couch, walking off to his room. Kaoru frowned; he hated how quiet Kyo was being, though he really couldn't blame him.
Having given up interest in the forgotten TV, he got up and headed to the kitchen for a drink. Opening a cabinet and retrieving a glass, his eyes fell across a small toy. Being a busy musician didn't always leave time for gourmet meals, so for the most part he wasn't about to give up the chance for a free toy at one of the local Americanized fast-food chains. After setting his unfilled glass down on the counter, he reached up and grabbed the small trinket. It was a little Warumono keychain with light up eyes. He smiled as he twirled it by the thick, tacky silver chain. It reminded him of the their own Warumono in the other room.
He put the keychain in his pocket and picking up his glass he went to the fridge and poured himself some soda. Looking down at his watch as he finished his drink, he noticed it had been a bit too long for a quick change and decided to go check. The purple haired man set his empty glass into the sink and walked out and down the hallway. He knocked on the door a few times quietly so as not to startle to vocalist.
"What?" It sounded a bit nervous. Being a bit curious he creaked the door open slowly and walked in before looking up at the smaller man, a blush then reached his cheeks. "What the fuck, Kaoru! Get out!" Kaoru didn't take his order and instead just stared for a moment before stuttering a little bit.
"Umm.. Just wanted to make sure you were still alive in here.. But I see you are... What's taking so long?" Kyo was standing there in only a slightly long shirt that didn’t go far past his thighs, but he was pulling it down much lower. The blonde glared, but then looked a bit troubled.
"Gahh.. I fucking forgot to pick up more than one shirt last night!" Kaoru couldn't help but find his temporary misfortune slightly amusing and nodded his head trying not to let out a laugh.
"I'll go get you some clothes to borrow." The older man said and walked out, moments later coming back with some boxers and pants. "These are old and a bit small on me now, they should fit you better," he said then threw the clothing toward Kyo but over his head and past him. Kyo shot him a glare and turned quickly to pick them up from the ground, accidentally flashing Kao a nice quick view of his ass, thighs, and everything inbetween as he left the room again grinning to himself. The grin turned to a frown as he looked down at his own crotch where his jeans bulged slightly. "Bad, no" he scolded the offending area jokingly, before laughing slightly to himself and leaning against the wall beside the door until the other man was finished.

Give My Heart For You

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Mon, 26 Jun 2006 07:00:02 GMT

Band: Dir en grey
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main

Chapter 2 – Unknown…Despair…A Lost

~+~Next day, Hospital~+~

As Kaoru made his way down the halls to Kyo’s room he thought of how Kyo would be handle all this. The smaller man wasn’t very strong emotionally and no matter how he tried to hide his demons, the rest of them could easily see. They had all tried their share of times to talk to him about it but he always either pushed them away or changed the subject. It sometimes worried them.

He finally came to the door and knocked quietly, opening it before awaiting an answer. His eyes fell upon the sleeping devil, he looked so innocent like a small child, it was actually adorable. Kaoru smirked slightly, imagining what would happen if Kyo could infact read thoughts. He grabbed Kyo’s small bag of things and went over to the bed, nudging Kyo lightly.

“Hey Kyo, time to get up. We’re leaving. ” Nothing. “Kyo~ Get up.” Again, nothing. “God damnit Kyo get the fuck up before I give your rats to Gackt as Mei’s new playtoy!” That got him up, Kyo snapped up glaring at Kaoru.

“What the fuck?! I’m up! Shit, what’s your deal?!” Kyo lashed out angrily but Kaoru could only hold in a small laugh.

“Oh you’re ‘up’ eh? Well I was going to have you go get dressed but now that you say that… ” Before he could finish, Kyo snatched his bag from Kaoru’s hands and climbed out of the bed.

“Do you mind, you old hentai fuck?” Kyo spouted, glaring at Kaoru. Kaoru snickered slightly with a “No, not at all” only making Kyo more agitated, but then gave up and left the room pouting to give him some privacy.

Moments later the door opened and Kyo popped out fully dressed in his normal street clothes. Kaoru patted his head, making him growl slightly. “Shall we go now? I’ve signed off your releases.”

Kyo nodded and started down the hallways with Kaoru beside him. “Thanks, These places piss me off.”

“I’ve noticed..” Kaoru mumbled and looked down at Kyo who was staring at the floor as they walked.

“I’m…” Kyo started. Kaoru cocked his head in question. ‘hmm?’ “I’m sorry Kao.. for being an ass to you and everyone else.” Kaoru stopped and stared it him, but Kyo didn’t look up.

Kaoru didn’t know what to say, it was unlike Kyo to apologize like this. “What do you mean?”

“Nothing.. Forget it.” Kyo sighed and they started walking again out to the car, Kaoru decided not to push it further.

After Kaoru opened the door for Kyo then went to his side and got in, they drove off with their newest CD blaring throughout the car. Kaoru looked over at Kyo who was staring out the window, watching the lights as they flew by. “Hey.. I forgot to mention before but, I would really like for you to come live with me for a while. I’ve talked to the others about it.”

Kyo shrugged. “I don’t need a caretaker, I’ll be fine on my own thank you.” He said passively. Kaoru frowned.

“Please? It’s for your own good and we do worry.” Kaoru pleaded.

Kyo scoffed and rolled his eyes. “Do whatever you want. Not like I have a say in anything anymore, I’ll be gone soon enough so why bother.” This gave Kaoru a small tinge in the pit of his stomach that remained for the rest of the drive.

~+~Kaoru’s apartment~+~

The ride home had been awkward and quiet even when stopping by Kyo’s to pick up some stuff, when they finally got home it had begun to storm.

Kyo was sitting on the couch still staring at nothing when Kaoru walked in from the bathroom with a towel. He kneeled infront of Kyo and handed him the towel but he got no response, Kyo didn’t even take it. “Kyo? You alright?” After a few seconds Kyo snapped out of it and snatched the towel, standing up.

“Oh I’m just dandy, Leader-Sama. I just got told I’m going to die soon and there’s barely a chance for me to be cured. Wow, I feel great!” Kyo yelled, and Kaoru could tell by the tremble in his voice that he was holding back. The guitarist was about to try comforting the man but was instead pushed out of the way as Kyo pushed past. “I’m going to bed.. ” Kyo sighed and walked to his room that Kaoru had shown him to when they first arrived.

Kaoru just sat there wordlessly, he wanted so much to help the little Prophet but didn’t know how. After a while of trying to watch TV incase Kyo decided to come back out, he finally gave in and went to bed as well.

~+~midnight, Kyo’s room(Dreamstate)~+~

He lie there crying in an endless expanse of blood. The only thing able to be seen were the silhouetted demons that haunted him ever so often drawing nearer. The only thing able to be heard was the sound of a heartbeat, deep and thick as honey, and the low merciless growls of the stalking fiends. All he could think about was not wanting to leave his beloved friends and fans. They were everything to him. Suddenly he could feel the sharp pains of claws scraping and teeth ripping at his flesh and mind, the sounds mixed with their disgusting hisses were sickening. There was nothing to be done, he could never escape it and he would never escape this situation he was in. The heartbeat began booming faster and louder until his ears felt like bursting. The claws mauling his body grew more insistent until finally everything stopped and he was left in a lonely black abyss to be devoured by his own insanity, accepting his fate.

Give My Heart For You

Erratic_Conceptions@hotmail.com — Sun, 25 Jun 2006 07:55:12 GMT

Band: Dir en grey
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main

Disclaimer- I dun own Diru, yo 0.0 but what i do own is this compu... BWAHAHA

AN: x-X i love reviews~ it gives me something to read while im like.. in the middle of stuff! so please review~ lol, i dun mind if ya dun >_> i just preffer cause im bored like that usually... wow my normal typed grammer sucks compared to when im writing something like a fic XD wow, im dumb... i get sidetracked easily and am vary lazy XD so if i randomly like die or something... dont be afraid to E-Mail me from my profile and bitch me out, okay?(be nice please T_T not my fault im slightly retarded)
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Chapter 1 - Taiyou No Ao

#~#~#Kyo’s POV#~#~#

I open my eyes slightly but am blinded by a bright light so I close them again before I can see anything. My head hurts so bad but I don’t know why either. I can’t hear anything, weren’t my ears just being blown out by sonic booms from amps and the screaming of fans? ‘Wait... This isn’t the concert hall! Where the FUCK am I?!’

#~#~#Normal#~#~#

Kyo sat up immediately, straining to ignore the drowsiness he felt and as he looked around he knew exactly where he was. ‘FUCK! SHIT! CUNT! DAMNIT TO HELL!!’ he hated hospitals most of all and of course with all his luck, this is where he seemed it be stuck at the moment. He heard a loud annoying beeping and glared at the heart monitor, which drifted into a blank stare as he watched the frequent spasms of the needle.

He was brought out of his trance as the door suddenly opened and in walked his fellow band members and a man he’d never seen before but judging by his attire could obviously assume to be the doctor. He glanced along each of their faces to see concern stained into them. The doctor directed them all to take seats as he stood aside Kyo’s quite uncomfortable bed. Before Kyo could say anything the doctor cleared his throat and began to speak.

“You’ve been unconscious for about 36 hours now, and we have taken the liberty with the consent of your friends to run a few tests. Before I get into anything further I would like to let you know that we will be working continuously to find a way to help you.” He paused for a moment, looking down at his clipboard and clearing his throat again. “Your friends have not heard of the situation yet either so I’m sure this will be quite a shock to all of you. You have been diagnosed with a rare heart disease,” Shinya gasped right away, clenching Die’s hand as the man in white continued on “which has not even been given a name yet. What happens is it eats away very slowly at certain arteries right as they branch off into the body. This is the reason for your frequent blackouts, the blood being cut off somewhat from your brain. It may also have helped in your history of ear problems, cutting the flow of blood to the organ.”

By now Shinya had his head buried against Die’s arm who was deep in thought clenching the arm of the chair, and Totchi had tears slowly running down his cheeks as he stared at his friend Kyo. Kaoru just sit there staring in disbelief. Kyo tried to breath but choked slightly. “What... What exactly is going to happen, can this… be stopped?”

The doctor sighed not so encouragingly as he adjusted his glasses for no apparent reason. “Well the only known cure so far is a transplant, but with this disease it’s hard to find a suitable donor. I’m sorry but if we don’t find one, and I have consulted other doctors in the hospital for their opinions, but I give you only 4 months. I’m truly sorry, sir.” With that the doctor bowed in respect and took his leave.

Kyo stared down at the sheets in front of him, shaking slightly as thoughts of everything the doctor had just said and what it meant raced through his mind, clashing into eachother like speeding semis. Silence filled the room aside from Totchi’s sobs and Shinya’s silent sniffles. Kaoru looked up at Kyo and it jolted his own heart to see the Warumono in such a position. Die held onto Shinya, not wanting to break the silence nor knowing what to say to help at all.

~+~Later that night, Die and Shinya’s apartment~+~

“FUCK! How could I have let this happen?! This is bullshit!” Kaoru shouted as he punched the wall across him. Die rested a hand on Kao’s fist as he walked into the room from the kitchen. As he eased the fist down, he handed the older man another beer. Shinya would have disagreed but he could tell nothing he could say would justify it after what they’ve gone through. Totchi who was asleep on the couch with still smudged eyeliner, his face slightly contorted within his dreaming state.

The doctor had told them that Kyo couldn’t leave until the next day, that they wanted to watch over him and run some more tests. Everyone feared for the blonde, everyone feared the worst would come and he’d be taken from them so suddenly they wouldn’t even know.

Die spoke up as he sat down next to Shinya on the couch, moving Totchi’s legs slightly for room. “Hey, What are we gonna do about where he lives? I mean.. We can’t really have him be living on his own like this. What if something happens?” Kaoru looked up.

“He can live with me.” He didn’t know why he was so worked up but he just knew he needed to have the vocalist near him. He couldn’t think of how it would be, worrying all the time while Kyo was with someone else watching over him. “It’s only me there as it is and Totchi’s apartment is too small, plus I don’t want you two to have to deal with more.”

“Are you sure?” Shinya finally said.

“Yes, I’m the leader as it is so I need to take care of you all anyways.” He said, slightly calmed from before as he continued to sip his beer. “I’ll go pick him up tomorrow.” He then yawned, having finished the can.

“You gonna drive home like that, Kao? I don’t think so.” Die said, standing up “We don’t mind, you can crash here for the night if ya want.” Kaoru shook his head.

“Nah, that’s okay, I’m fine.” He declined as he stood as well to get his things.

“No, stay here tonight. I’ll go get you some blankets,” he looked to Die, “Die, could you please take Kaoru to the room?” The tall redhead nodded and shrugged to the defeated Kao, then led him down the hall to the spare room. Shinya smiled sadly as he disappeared into the room before going to the closet to get Kaoru’s blankets.